Baby Boom || Liam Payne <Complete>

Chapter 10: Just Thinking

Sorry

-feeling regret

I'm done. I'm completely and utterly done with all the God damn sorrys. There is way too many to count. Exspecially coming from him.

I'm currently sitting on my favorite hill overlooking the big, beautiful lake at St. James Park. It was so peaceful. Everything was red, orange, and brown. Since, it was fall. The lake had ducks filled in it and the scenery was just breathtaking.

 This was the place I'd always go to after I felt worthless, or after I'd broke down thinking about John. This was, however, way before I had met Ms. Reeds. Or before she even gave birth to Jakob. The whole park was filled with activity and I think that's why I liked it the best. There was always something/someone to look at.

To the far left I see a mother helping her son feed bread to the ducks. A happy couple was walking hand in hand while pushing the stroller holding a baby boy around. Some young teens were under a tree looking at the football game that was going on, and being all lovey-dovey towards each other.

As I watch the scenes fold out in front of me, I couldn't help but think about what Liam had said.

"IT'S NOT MY FAULT YOUR BROTHER LEFT YOU JUST TO GO DIE! HE PROBABLY DID IT TO GET AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR MESSED UP LIFE!"

When Liam said this, I couldn't help but feel torn. Why would he even say something like this? I'm not even mad anymore about him not telling me he had a girlfriend and was leading me on. I'm upset that he actually thought that about John; thought that about me. 

I didn't notice how late it was until I saw the park lights turn on. I looked at the time on my phone and it read 8:30. The boys are probably already home. I also didn't notice the number of texts I had from them. Mostly all from Liam. It's just the same text over and over again.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

I didn't mean it.

It was all a lie.

Please talk to me.

Blah, blah-blah, blah-blah....Like I said, I was done. I deleted all his messages and looked at Zayn's.

Jessie?! I understand you're upset but it's really late and we haven't heard from you for 2 hours! Please call me. Just so I know you're okay. Everyone's freaking out over here!

I sighed after I read the text. I was gone for only 2 hours, yes, but is it enough? No.

I honestly don't want to see any of the boys right now. I know they're just trying to help and stuff but I just need some time to myself. That's why I'm here but it's not as great because I have the boys worrying about me. 

I gave off a loud, frustrated sigh and stood up. I dusted off my bum and picked up my keys. I slowly walked through the park that was less crowded now since it was the evening. The football game was still going on and there was a pretty big crowd surrounding it. Everyone was distracted and in their own little world. They looked as if they had no worry in the world, and honestly, I wish I could feel as care-free as they were feeling right now. But I had responsibilities, and those responsibilities were all owed to Jakob. 

It's funny how I've only been gone from him for 2 hours and I miss him like crazy. I should take him someplace. I haven't really took him out since Ms. Reeds died. Maybe we could go on a mini vacation. That actually doesn't sound to bad. He would be happy if we did. 

I eventually came to the car park and silently walked to my car. As I strapped myself in, I kept the keys in the ignition turning it on just so it was powered enough to where I could make a phone call. I placed the cord in my phone and scrolled through the contacts. I clicked on just the one I wanted and waited as it rang. Though, I didn't have to wait very long because soon, a certain lads voice filled my ears through the car's speakers.