Insomniac

Perfect, for the First time Ever.

"I'm so excited this week is finally over! Seeing tomorrow and that's just...great!"- Chris' text was so.

"Yeah....great"- I was terrifictly afraid and nervous and ...well i was an ocean of feelings

"Trust on me, everything is gonna be okay"- he replied

"I do! But aren't you nervous?"- I asked for he always seemed secure as a lion

"Yes, I am but it's more my emotion to see you and tell you that I think it'll overpass me "- What a simple answer!

"Hope I'd survive to that! I am so happy about that and sincerely....I can't wait"- I learned to hide nothing from him and I applied so.

"You'll survive haha, I'm nervous too but everything's gonna be okay"-he promised....and I believed.

We agreed to don't text anymore during the day because if not we wouldn't have what to talk about the next day , still we texted at night just to say good-night and get excited together about next day, I felt asleep feeling complete, complete because he was ,in some way, with me and next day was gonna be magical, I woke up by 7am cause I was so eager haha but I slept again cause neither was he awake by that hour, then I awoke when Momma said,

"Daaaannyy, come to eat breakfast!!"- she enjoys shouting in the morning (love you Mommy!)

I went on right after washing my face, saw the hour and it's 9am, I knew Chris used to awake by that hour or 9:30am , so I checked my phone to read the 'Good Morning-my-love text' of every morning. And then Mom and I sat together at table for breakfast, my bro had already eaten his so he was seeing tv at Mom's place.

" What makes you so...eager today?"- she asked with her Momma-has-noticed-already tune, which made me more nervous.

"Ammm...nothing, I'm perfect "- I was perfect, and I used to tell her everything but my feelings were so very intense and I feared she would think me crazy because of loving him too much and...how would I tell her this 'Mom, I love him so bad, and he has become my Security...etc"

"Yes...sure, Dany remember you can tell me everything you want, I'm your Mom, you count on me and I'll understand no matter what the matter to be"- I trusted her and ... I'm a terrific liar, to my bad luck.

"Okay...he told me that he loves me and so...so I to him, but I was affraid to tell you cause I don't want to stay away from him and he is gonna tell me in person today after the movie and I'm pretty nervous and..." - she interrupted

" Woow wow wow, keep calm girl! I already guessed so my child, I won't stop you both cause it's so romantic but you should be careful remember you're just fourteen and he is fifteen,and still he is a man , be very smart and caring my child"- I did not understood what does it meant.

"Ammm...sure, Thank You!!!"- I was glad she understood,

So I went on, I had to deceide what to wear and fix my hair and etc, also I had to manage my nerves cause all of me was trembling and shivering on nerves, I was like a soup of floating nerves, however I learned that if I held my breath it was better cause trembling stopped but the only other way to make trembling stop was...losing myself on his eyes but that wasn't an option for that day. I was just so eager and excited and nevous and trembling (yeah, again! ) clock seemed to advance little by little and I just had to search for a way to make it pass swiftly, I took a very long bath from nearly 3 hours, Mom got so mad about that but now the hour was near so ...honestly, I paid 0% attention to her scolding, she was just furious but I was in a daydream, mentally, cause my face appeared to be consterned so she wouldn't find out where my mind was, it was in Wonderland.