Insomniac

Back at Home

   "So sorry you're leaving this soon Dany, days went away extremely fast!!"- said Vicky

  Sincerely I was eager to back home and see Chris and hug him so tight and so also to see my parents but...mainly him, it was unhuman to hold all the feelings I was holding,  so also I was sad cause I really loved Victoria and now was so thankful for she had been the key on changing my mind, I was nervous because that could be the day I was giving my first kiss, sure Vicky tried to explain me somethings about kissing and guys and etc....she had had nearly ten guys to the date so she had experience but it was different because Chris and I were more a ...love thing not just being a couple because we were single, no, we wanted to be together because we our love drived us together and in some way... we needed each other.

 "Yeah, I know, wish I could have more time but you know there are many things to fix back at Cancun and my new choices are going to affect everyone....girl, I am not ready for this big fight"- I confessed feeling a little blue.

 "Oh Dear, I know it's hard because I have my battles here, same as you but they say I'm a bitch...I have learned to ignore them, i am not one of those I have made big mistakes with the guys I date but still I'm going on, it's because..."- she was tenderly saying as she held my arm when I interrupted

 "It's because you're brave and I'm not"

"You're bravier, you know there are many things you already sacrified for that tadpole (she can't be kind to him and viceversa), that was brave and knowing what's ahead and being willing to face it all because of love...cutie that's something even I'll fear, Dear just ignore the whispers or screams of hate or disgust and be happy because somehow you deserve to experience Love in all its forms, and I will be here for you..I'm crazy but willing to help!"- she lovingly said 

 "Thank you sis, I will miss you as you can't imagine...wish me luck so I won't regret...."

 "DARE TO REGRET AND I PROMISE YOU I'LL GO TO KICK YOUR STUPID ASS...sure, with love"- she screamed

 We laughed and smiled as long as we could, then we had to say good-bye which was harder than I expected, we saw each other as the bus left and we could no longer see, she encouraged me with her eyes and words, now I was ready to face all Cancunense-Church trial, and the scary consequences of the best decision ever.

  Now I was trying to just focus on the sight but the man beside me was extremely talkative!!He talked all the 3 hours without ceasing until I said I was dissy and set on my headphones but neither was I listening music but was imagining how the moment would be and figuring a way to don't faint if he kissed me, since every time I saw him my heart jumped out of my chest , then when he hugged me it was a feeling of perfection but I trembled and breathed heavily...with a kiss he would surely kill me. Then I thought in rejecting or finding a way to escape from that because sure I wanted but damn, my head screamed!

  "DOES SHE UNDERSTAND THE RISKS?!"- shouted Order filled of anger

 "She DOES and she is perfectly aware but still she is being brave!It...it's love!"- Hope defended

 "I know, I'm it and so his love for her, I believe him and Dany is doing right, let her trust!"- Love added

"No one of you understands Order, right? He is right! What if for some reason leaves her..what about that kiss? What about her feelings and then we will explote!!! Or worse we will have to bear her sadness!"- proclaimed Fear

" Yeah but she is so strong I bet that if something happens she will be pretty held by us "- added Optimist

"The Matter here is that is she does that, she will be trusting him totally and wholly and ...remember Stability! It has become fragile and the only times it's a strong as before are when she is with him! Senate , I'm protecting the child by asking you to please reconsider, don't let it happen!"-Order asked

"You're a monster, blinded by your own choice, let's trust the guy he is good and has promised to never leave!"-Hope said

"I saw him to the eyes and I saw his Honesty at the controls, so he was honest, vote on favour of trust!"- said Honesty

"You see, Order, no worries!"- Hope cheered

 "Dany, please don't I know you know I just want the best for you as they all do and maybe I'm the sour one but what if I'm right? Hope promised to remain with you by the end... would it be better to avoid an end? Think...do you really want to have a boyfriend?"- Order told me

"I know I don't want a boyfriend, I want him.. Order I love him heartfully so even though I don't want a boyfriend I want him as my boyfriend, the boyfriend, you get it?"

 "I do, and I will have to let it pass since the control are now a dream of mine , I just have them while you do school, that's why you always succed on that and it's why you have an uncomparable Math progress,  but do as you feel"- Order said

 Everything remain on silence and I just floated all through my head thinking about Chris and my decision, it was taken already for sure, no reason to reject and then he called to aske me how I was and if I was near, I actually was...I could see the station and then we said good bye, then I came down and carried my stuff all along the way until I arrived to the place where my family should have been.....

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   Million thanks for reading and dedicating me time and I hope you really like it !!! 

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