Insomniac

Costs of Happiness

   I was the happier person on Earth and even Universe, on his arms everything was perfect, and I felt complete and truly happy, this costed me however, it took away friendships and persons of the church preferred to stay away from me, Mothers used to take me as an example and now I was the bad girl everyone should care their children of, just a family remained with us and with me...just a girl named Camila , her sister Maggie, and another friend named Kenn, Mary hated me or at least that appeared for she and her friend Oscar kept making me as unhappy as they could, teasing me and whispering stuff on my back, throwing trash to my name, a friend named Angel (this one remained too) even stayed apart of them for he said "I am not willing to keep listening to the stupities they say about you, if I wanna hear an estupity then I'll hear yours...which are sweeter and funnier".  This was a really kind deed and my heart treasured it, and time advanced....now it was September and we were back at school, we saw a lot during vacations and just could never go to 'Wet & Wild'  however we plainned it for next summer, Momma loved him as her own son but... still she loved her previous 'candidate'. For too long, since my 9 years old, Momma met someone who she wanted me to marry...she even told him but the age....he was more than 4 years bigger! 6 to be exact!! So it was a no, obviously, however this guy and I kept a good friendship, he was funny and cool and a little...scrooge haha but he was always great! For time we liked each other...but somehow it changed and now I had Chris,  and ...I tried tl keep this from him cause even though we were just friends he was possessive and disliked when I was away from him for too long, he could be away but I couldn't somehow he also had a kinda reign over me, he could give me orders and I would always obey, usually we even sat together and texted we had been an informal couple in some way but now here was Chris and I had to keep kinda distance but....he had been away for nearly six months and I had missed him but the day everyone saw him I kept from running to him and greet him and give him a very big hug , yes ....my heart certainly beated fast and a certain emotion was generating but I grabbed my love for Chris and it felt better in my heat but there was him in front of me, since I didn't went to greet him ...he came to greet me and we gave a warm hug and we crossed words saying "I missed you" and we tighted the hug, but it was weird so I kept away.

                        A certain day all the 20iers and I were at Starbucks...everyone but him was on the moment of checking phones since we were waiting for the movie to begin and I was texting with Chris, still uninformal relationship, and I felt the stares of Him (as I will call the guy cause his name shall stay hidden) he already knew about what was going with Chris and me and was just mad at me for that...I understood but What could I do? I knew what I could do but I wouldn't even if in some friendly way I loved Him I couldn't cease it with Chris! I had surpassed the Pastor, ministers, Mommas, and friend, even the ones who were like my sisters, Leah and Kim, and well...Him, now I had to surpass him and hope he would someday forgive me. There we were and he was seeing me weird, like mad haha and then he took his coffe and beated the table with it, all got covered specially me and my phone, we were at the same table...together, but I had said no word to him cause I was texting , which made him really angry, and then I felt the coffee over me and so over my phone and said,

 "What!! Hey....Well done! Gotta be little more careful don't ya think?" - I was angry and some laughed at his deed.

 "Keep calm, I've made you a favour!"- he said 

 "Yeah...which one? I don't find it funny,"

"I got your freaking face out of the stupid screen , that's a kindness of mine," - he said with a bitter tune, letting me know he was angry, all laughter stopped.

 "What! Just that...uggh whatever"- yeah I was mad

 Then I cleaned myself and my phone it had been disgusting to me but it wasn't over yet for he added,