The Choice -minizerk AU-

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Josh's P.O.V.

"Hey Ethan can I talk to you?" I hear Simon ask as I was about to fall asleep.

"Yeah, what's up? Is something wrong?" Ethan asked as I heard him shifting.

"Kind of, I think I made a humongous mistake. You remember the time Josh wasn't talking to me?" Simon said taking a pause, "well I was going through a really tough time and Cal was there, Freezy to be exact. He comforted me in ways that I needed. Things kind of happened, I ended up having sex with him, Josh knows but he only thinks that we made out. Cal still likes me, like a lot. I don't know what to do."

Please Ethan, please say something.

"What is you heart saying?" He said as my heart broke.

"No, not like that. I know that I love Josh, no one can change that. It's just, I don't want Freezy and I to have a bad relationship because of this." Simon said bring a sigh of relief to me.

"Are you sure it isn't something more? It sounds like you are kind of contemplating if Freezy is the better choice." Ethan said breaking me in half.

I can't allow this to happen. Simon is the love of my life. I will always fight for him. I can't even believe Ethan.

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We all got off of the plane as I felt Simon try and grab my hand. I didn't know if I should allow him to grab it or not. I was so frustrated with it all. I can't believe this is actually happening.

I held on to his hand not letting him go. I love him, I love him so much and I'm not going to lose him.

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We all got to the hotel and everyone ended up being really tired so we all went to our bedrooms. Of course Simon and I were sharing a room.

"You're probably not tired but I could really use some sleep." Simon said getting undressed into his boxers.

"About that, I wasn't asleep for the whole ride." I said as he looked up at me in shock.

"What do you mean?!" He said and at that moment I realized that this vacation isn't going to be what I romanized it to be.

"I heard you and Ethan talk, about Cal." I said as he slowly sat on the bed.

"Look I didn't want you to hear that." He said as I felt myself slowly breaking.

"Of course you didn't Simon. Why would you want me to hear that you want to be with someone else? I love you Simon, I thought you loved me and apparently all of that was just a lie." I said as I slowly walked to the door.

"Josh, it isn't like that." He said grabbing my arm as I just pulled it away.

"Oh it isn't like that?! Really?! Oh I'm sorry, so are we now suppose to just lie in bed together and forget everything that happened?" I said opening the door.

"Josh-"

"No Simon, I'm done." I said as everything broke down at that exact moment.

"Josh?" Tobi said as I looked at him.

I just looked down as I felt defeated at that moment in time. I just slid down the door hoping that Simon was on the other side doing the same. But that was what I dreamed of, and dreams aren't reality.