The Choice -minizerk AU-

16

Simon's P.O.V.

I woke up and remembered what was happening today. Josh was leaving. I have to let him go. He obviously doesn't feel the same way. I mean there was so many things that I thought maybe he did, but he doesn't, he loves Freya. He always has and always will. I was stupid and naive to think that he could possibly like me.

I got up and went into the bathroom taking a shower and brushing my teeth.

I went downstairs and saw Josh eating. He was all alone and oh how much I was going to miss coming downstairs to see him eating.

I went in and grabbed a bowl, cereal and some milk. I sat down across from him pouring the cereal then the milk and grabbing a spoon.

"So you excited or scared?" I asked as he looked up from his cereal that he was playing with.

"I don't know, excited, scared, sad, overall a billion feelings." He said making me laugh.

"It will be okay. You and Freya truly love each other and this is the best for both of you." I said trying to support him and not breaking inside.

I saw him look up and then look down.

"So I guess this is going to be my last meal here." He said as I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"I guess, it's also our last meal together in this room. All of the memories of eating KFC, Micky D, even Nando's." I said as he laughed as he looked up.

"Or even those times where we would heat up those horrible pizzas." He said laughing making me laugh.

"Oh my god, those were horrid." I said laughing even more.

"Oh my god, do you remember the time that we were trying to make pancakes and you ended up melting one of the pancakes onto the stove." He said laughing as I felt myself go weak.

"Oh my god, stop I can't breathe." I said in between laughs.

"I'm going to miss those memories. I'm going to miss waking up in the middle of the night and finding you eating with a second serving for me, because you just knew. I'm going to miss the times where we would laugh so hard that we would spit out our water. I'm going to miss waking up and going into the living room and seeing you in a blanket on the couch waiting for me. I'm going to miss playing games and doing live streams at times like 5'o clock in the morning. I'm going to miss you." He said looking up at me and almost starting to cry.

"Hey, we still are going to Skype and we can still have those live streams at stupid times." I said laughing as he shook his head.

"Yeah, you're right, I'm just overreacting." He said wiping away the tears, "I'm going to go take a shower and get changed. I guess I'll see you with the rest of the guys in a hour to say goodbye."

He then went upstairs as I felt myself break down on the inside.

"Good for you." Tobi said scaring me, "sorry, Vik let me in."

"It's fine, and what do you mean good for me. The love of my life is leaving." I said as he nodded.

"But, you know that he is your friend and you were willing to put behind your own feelings for his." He said as I nodded.

"Why can't I be selfish?" I said making Tobi laugh.

"Because you know Josh is never selfish when it comes to you." He said and it hurt because it was true.

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Everybody ended up finally coming and it was time to say goodbye.

"I guess this is goodbye, I mean we are going to see each other in a month for the wedding, so it isn't that bad." Josh said as I held back my tears.

"I'm going to miss you my brother." Tobi said hugging him and then Manny joined in too.

"Stay safe and be happy." Manny said making Josh laugh at the two.

"It's going to be weird, not living here with you, Simon, and JJ. I'm going to miss you and I hope you visit and I'll visit you." Vik said as Tobi and Manny walked away.

He then hugged Vik and then they let go allowing Ethan to go up. Ethan didn't really say anything he just gave Josh a humongous hug.

Everyone else had the same things to say. That they were going to miss him and that they hope to see him more often than not.

It started to rain and everyone rain inside except for Josh and I. I stared at him as the rain fell and he just looked at me.

"I'm going to miss you the most." He said as I nodded unsure of what I could possibly say.

Do I say it, or do I not? What if he rejects me and takes off to New York? This could truly ruin everything. He isn't bi, nor gay and he could never love someone like me.

"I guess this is goodbye, I should really get going anyway." He said as he hugged me and walked off to his truck.

He got inside and then that was it. It was as if my body couldn't move. The truck slowly pulled out and there, the love of my life left me as it was raining. All describing how I felt at the exact moment in time.

I went back inside and I just broke down in front of everyone. They didn't know what to say or do. I was a nervous wreck and I didn't know what to do without Josh.

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A/N: look at that another chapter. Yesterday I gave you nothing and today I give you three. I hope you are happy. Because I certainly am. I was literally just singing and then like all of this just came to me and I actually love it. I hope you guys do to. We are getting so close to the climax of this book. This is by far my longest book and I'm so proud of it. I hope you guys enjoy reading this as mush as I love writing it. I also wanted to say that in my Q&A + Tags I uploaded a new Q&A chapter if you want to check that out. One of the questions actually has to do with an upcoming book so go check it out if you want to help me decide on that. Anyway that is all, bye!