violet//danisnotonfire

|Chapter 63-Rowen Winnie Howell|

Dan's POV

I gripped Violet's hand tightly, as she let out one last push, and my baby girl was born. Cries filled the hospital room, not just the baby, but everyone in the room accept the multiple doctors and nurses. Unlike what would usually happen when a women has just given birth, a nurse is handed the baby, and Violet is rushed out of the room. They told us they would have to check on her as soon as Rowan was born. The nurse smiled warmly at me after she wrapped the baby.

"Would you like to hold her?" I nodded, unable to say anything. The lady walked over to me, carefully setting my daughter in my arms. I looked down at her, tears dripping from my eyes. She was beautiful, just like her mother. She my brown eyes, and my lips, but all the rest of her features were her mothers.

"Welcome to the world Rowen." Addy said from behind me. I looked back at her, smiling, both of us crying, along with Phil. I couldn't stop crying. I brought this little masterpiece into this world, and I already love her so much. The only thing that could make this more perfect would Violet being here.

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About half an hour later they brought Violet back. As soon as she saw me holding the baby she broke into tears. I stood up and handed little Rowen to her. She smiled and laughed.

"Hi baby girl." She said softly, caressing through the little bit of hair she had. She cried.

"What if I don't make it Dan?" She asked. Before I could say anything Addy stepped in.

"Violet, don't say that! For fucks sake! You're gonna make it!..." She broke down into tears. "Just.... Don't say that..." She said.

"Just... If I don't please take care of her." Violet said.
None of us wanted  to say anything. We all wanted  to believe that she was going to make it. And we all knew she would make it. But part of us had doubts that were hard to ignore.

"Of course" Addy told her.

"There is no way in hell I wouldn't." I told her. She smiled and turned her attention back to the baby.

"I love you." She whispered. A nurse came in.

"I just wanted to check in, and let you all know that Violet will begin chemo therapy in an hour." then she proceeded to check on Rowen, and left. Something strange I noticed is that Violet was still out of breath from birthing. Is that normal? It's been like 45 minutes. Slowly, her breathing kept getting heavier and heavier, but then... It stopped. Completely. She just stopped breathing at all. The loud, forever lasting beep of the machine filled our heads as Violet was rushed out of the room for the second time tonight, Rowen being taken away from her by a nurse first. I tried chasing after her but the doctors wouldn't let me in.

"Dan!" Phil tugged on my shoulder. I turned around and slapped him. He backed up, and held his hand over his face.

"Phil, I'm sorry, I just-"

"I know... It's okay he said."

" I don't know what I'm gonna do if she goes." I collapsed into Phil's arms.

"Don't worry. You'll have us. Beside, I'm sure she'll be fine. Violet is a fighter, she can do it." he tried comforting. But this feeling deep in my stomach disagreed. We sat outside the door where the doctors were with Violet, Addy even came to sit with us later. I tried to listen into the room, to hear what they were talking about but I just couldn't. I was almost asleep, but then a nurse exited the room. Her face showed sympathy. My head popped up.

"Where's Violet? Is she okay?" I asked frantically. The nurse just frowned.

"I'm afraid we lost her, I'm so sorry." I stopped breathing in that moment and began crying. I fell onto Addy's shoulder, who was heavily sobbing too.

Truth is, I didn't want to believe that Violet was gonna die. I knew deep down she was, but I didn't want to believe it. Violet was by far the most amazing person ever. In that moment, all I could think about was her beautiful smile and bright green eyes, and her long hair that I would play with any chance I got. I remembered how much I loved her and how I wished that even though I told her how much I loved her, and hadn't ignored the fact I had a feeling.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is appreciate those who you love and those who you care about, and tell them what they mean to you, because one day, they might be brutally ripped from your grasp before you. Violet, she was special. She was this light in my life, she was everything to me, and now she's gone. I don't know what I'll do with my life from now on. But I know I'll be remembering her. Forever.

Goodbye Violet. I love you.