Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang (Teacher-Student Romance Robert Downey Jr.)

Body Say.

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Author's Note:

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There are these moments when you somehow seem to have lost all your self control. Short seconds of loosing your ability of making a desicion. It's as if you're in a constant free fall, without anything that's going to stop you. Just air above and under, all around you. 

But this moment isn't one of them. It isn't another tragic situation where I completely let go of my inner adult. Yes, I tend to lock it in the basement from time to time and more often when a certain man is around, yet I won't do it this time. 

Still feeling his whole body pressed against mine. My hands are up the wall, held down by his tense fingers. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing I would want to do more in this moment than give into it. Leave the worries behind and just dive into his abyss. Taste the bittersweet emotions he makes me feel and loose myself once again. Because if I'm honest, it's the best feeling in the world. 

But not today. Not here. Not now. So I take a deep breath and with all my strenght, I force him to move backwards. 

"I said 'no'." I say, calm and Downey moves away. There isn't the furious lust in his eyes anymore and no caged desire in mine. And he sees that. 

"I'm sorry." He says, now a bit insecure. "I didn't mean to scare you." 

His voice is soft and careful. There is a shimmer in his eyes that I can't place. Something that reminds me of being afraid of something. 

A sweet smile forms on my lips. "You didn't scare me, Downey." 

"Good." He replies, now a bit more stern, as if he had to catch himself. 

We stand there in silence, which almost feels a little awkward. 

"We should probably go now." I start and Downey stops me with his hand raised. 

"Wait." He says and I frown. "I just...I'm sorry if I came on a little strong. It's just that...you confuse me, you know? I don't know if I should be shutting your mouth or sending you flowers. It's as if my heart has lost it's mind and my brain is having constant heartattacks. I try to be calm and mature, but when I'm with you....it's as if my brain deleted everything and there is just one thing left. You." 

His words are honest. He speaks with a firm, but loving voice and I know in that moment that we're not in that sarcastic, tense part of our relationship right now. 

"That sounded quite lovely." I reply, honest. 

"I'd be a horrible writer if it didn't." He replies with a smirk. 

I know that he is waiting for a responds. And not just that I want to go to work, but how I want this whole thing between us to go. There is an expecting look on his face.