Little Feet

Chapter 24

Two days later we were able to go home. Drew was only 6 pounds and 3 ounces and 19 inches long but the doctor said it was normal and he would grow as he got older.

My dad drove home yesterday to get his carseat and some more things we needed so we had everything when we could leave. Kasey, Jessie and my dad were all here to take me home.

Kasey was head over heels in love with Drew and she would steal him from someone anytime she saw him.  She's even changed his diaper more than my dad or Jessie has.

When we were finally able to leave I got in the wheelchair and Kasey handed me Drew. He was smiling and had his eyes open looking at me.  I loved him more than I ever thought I could love someone before.  He was almost identical to Jake but he was very attached to me.  When the nurse started to wheel is down to my dads car Jessie began to cry.

"Jess why are you crying?" Kasey asked. 

"I didn't actually think Jake and Taylor could make something so beautiful and perfect and I never thought I would be a grandma to that perfect human" she said getting emotional. Jessie has cried more than Drew within the last two days.

When we got to the car Jake was sitting in the passenger seat and when he saw us he got out.  He walked over to me and asked to take Drew.  I nodded and he took him out of my arms to put him in the carseat.  My dad and the nurse helped me to get in the car and when I was settled I thanked the nurse and told her how helpful she was before she left. Jake got in on the other side of Drew.  Kasey and Jessie got in their car and my dad got in with us.

"Jake I know I said it already but thank you" my dad said.

"Eric he's my son. Id do anything for him" Jake said without looking away from Drew. I smiled at him and my dad was smiling too. 

When we got to Jessie's there was a sign that said "Welcome home Drew" and a bunch of blue balloons everywhere. Kasey and Jessie ran out of the house and then followed Haley and Nick.  Haley looked in pain and I wanted to talk to her but right now wasn't the best time.  I got out slowly with the help of my dad and Jake grabbed Drew's carseat. 

When we went inside Drew started to get fussy and I figured he was hungry.  Since I was breast feeding I went upstairs and got all set up.  Drew latched on right away and slowly fell asleep.  When he fell asleep I put him in the play pen Jessie set up so while we were here he had a place to sleep. I cleaned myself up and turned on the baby monitor before going back down stairs.

"Does he latch well and everything?" Jessie asked.

"Yeah he's perfect" I smiled. "Well when he's asleep I'm gonna go shower because I feel gross" I laughed. They nodded and I went upstairs to shower.

When I got out of the shower I heard Jake and Haley talking in his room.

"Jake do you understand that she wants them to stay here?"

"Yes I do Haley. And they can"

"Why should they?  They left!  And I don't want our daughter growing up with her son"

"That is my son too Haley. Watch what you say.  He is as much mine is our daughter is mine.  And yes they can stay here because I want to see my son and be in his life"

"That's not what you said a few weeks ago"

"A few weeks ago I was pissed off and scared.  And I still am scared Haley. Drew is my son and Paisley is my daughter and I want them to get along.  And when their older I want them to know what happened but for now they are my kids and you are my girlfriend."

"And what about Taylor?"

"Taylor is my son's mom" I heard drew start crying and went into my room to get him in my towel. He smiled when he saw me and I picked him up.  Kasey was laying on my bed and smiled at me. 

"You're gonna be a great mom Tay"

"Thank you Kase" I said playing with Drew's hands. I handed Kasey Drew and went to get shorts and a T-shirt on.  When I came back in Kasey was laying with Drew and he was laughing. I fell in love with his laugh the moment I heard it.

I started to tear up and wiped them away before she saw. I never thought I could ever love someone as much as I love Drew. He was my whole world and I am in love with it.

Jessie came up with Nick and asked to take Drew for a few minutes. I nodded and Kasey and her went downstairs. Nick was standing in the doorway awkwardly.

"What?" I snapped.

"I'm sorry Taylor"

"Okay Nick you've already said that"

"And I mean it. I love you Taylor and I'm so sorry I called you a whore. I didn't mean it and I won't forgive myself if you can't forgive me."

"Nick I love you too but I have to focus on Drew right now. You are not as important to me as he is. So yes I forgive you but I don't want anything with you."

"Okay I understand that just know I love you and I'm always gonna be here for you and Drew" he said hugging me.

I hugged him back and mumbled a thank you.  I went downstairs and my dad was holding Drew.  I took a picture of it and put my phone away. I had so many pictures of Drew and everyone that my storage is almost full.  I walked over to them and my dad smiled at me.

"Your mom called" he said with a straight face.

"And?"

"She said congrats on the baby and congratulations we lost a home" he said with a sad look in his eye. 

"Dad I'm sorry. I-"

"Taylor you did nothing wrong. Drew is perfect and your mom doesn't know what she is going to miss out on. I love you sweetie"

"Where are we gonna stay? "

"Next door" Jessie smiled.

"Dad we can't afford that"

"It's ours.  Your dad is gonna rent it from us" Jason said bouncing Kason on his legs.

"Really?" I said getting tears in my eyes. 

"Yes" my dad smiled.  I hugged him, Jessie and Jason and smiled.

"When do we move in"

"It's already set up, what do you think we were doing all this time we were at the store?" dad asked.  I shrugged my shoulders, I guess I never really thought about it.

"Well can we officially move in?"

"In two days" my dad said. I smiled and then Drew started to cry a little. My dad handed him over to me and I started rocking him in NY arms. He calmed down a little bit before I realized he needed his diaper changed.

While I was changing his diaper Haley came upstairs and sat on my bed. "Can we talk?"

"about what?"

"I think I lost the baby"