Little Feet

Chapter 19

I woke up the next morning when I heard Nick and Kasey arrive. I went downstairs and there was ballons and streamers everywhere. "Oh my" I laughed looking at the house and backyard. There was some gifts on the table and cake and food on the table next to it. 

"Guys the party doesn't start for three hours" I laughed. 

"It's starts in an hour Tay.  It's already noon" Kasey laughed at me.  I looked up at the clock and ran upstairs.

"Nick I need your help!" I yelled.  Nick came up while I was standing in leggings and a sports bra that read 'it's a...'.

"What's up?"

"Can you help me paint my belly blue?" he shook his head and kneeled next to me.  He grabbed the paint brush and painted, having to stop every few times because I was ticklish and laughing too much.

"Thank you so much Nick" I smiled.  I was waiting for the paint to dry to put on my shirt and Nick sat with me. 

"I heard about Hailey" he said quietly.

"Yeah"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't think it was that big of a deal"

"You went to the emergency room Taylor"

"I was in pain Nick"

"I could have helped you"

"Why would you?"

"Because I'm here for you and this munchkin in here"

"Nick why are you doing this? It's obvious that you think it's wrong Jake just left me but I don't need you"

"Taylor I'm here because I want to be"

"Why"

"Because I have feelings for you Taylor"

"Nick.."

"Taylor,  for the last 5 and 1/2 months I've been by your side almost every day and sometimes night, when you were happy,  scared,  or feeling alone. I have developed feelings for you and I want to be with you through it all." he smiled. 

"Nick I can't put you into a position like this.  I'm pregnant with someone else's baby and I don't expect you to care for him."

"But I want to Taylor"

"Nick, I can't do this right now.  I need to focus on my son and do what's best for him. I'm so sorry" I said before putting on my shirt and walking downstairs to the party. 

There was already some people there. When I walked down some came to talk to me and others smiled.  Nick came down shortly after and avoided me.

"Okay everyone I wanna say thank you for coming and thank you for all the gifts.  It's highly appreciated but now it's time that we all have been waiting for" I took of my shirt revealing my blue belly.

"It's a boy!" Jessie yelled.  People cheered and others clapped.  For the next few hours I opened gifts,  ate food, and talked with some people. At about 6 people started to leave and we began to pick up. 

"I knew it was a boy" Jessie laughed. 

"Oh did you?"

"Yes!" she laughed.

"So my godmommy duty is for a little boy" Kasey smiled at me. 

"Sure is missy"

"I guess that's okay" she laughed as she rubbed my belly. 

"I heard that Nick talked to you about his feelings" Mason said to me and Kasey.

"Yeah.  He did" I said looking at the ground.

"And?"

"I told him I had to focus on my baby boy" I said honestly.

"Why?"

"Because it's true and I'm not gonna drag Nick into my sons life when he doesn't have to just because the real dad is a dick and plus he has football and school and doesn't have time for a baby"

"He wants too Taylor and you don't find someone like that often" Mason smiled.

Later on that night I was sitting in my room when Nick texted me and told me to meet at him at the park. I walked the short walk there soon regretting it because my back and feet started to hurt causing me to wobble.  When I got there I saw Nick sitting on the swings and I walked over to meet him there. 

"Hey" I smiled.

"Hey" he smiled back. 

"What's up?"

"Waiting for you"

"Well what do you need? "

"Taylor I spent every Friday at this park waiting for my father to come and push me on the swings.  Instead of my father, Jim showed up. He would push me on the swings every Friday for as long as I wanted. But my mom refused to accept him in our lives because she wanted my father to come back."

"I'm sorry Nick"

"Soon Jim was there everytime my mom needed someone or Kasey needed someone or I needed someone. He would show up. Then my father came back and kicked Jim out of lives and beat us every single night and day for accepting him in the first place Taylor. When my father got arrested again Jim came back and my mom accepted him after four years. Taylor I don't want you to sit around for Jake while the person that wants to be in your life and wants to be in your sons life sits right in front of you."

"Nick.. "

"Taylor your son will always have me in his life wether you want to be with me as a couple or just friends but being with you and him for the rest of my life is what I want to do for the rest of my life. And who knows maybe add some more along the way but you and I both know that Jake is not the person you want that with" he said standing in front of me. I had tears rolling down my cheeks and he wiped them away.

"I love you Taylor and I want you to always remember that" he said holding my hands. I stood up and kissed him. He embraced me in his arms and kissed me back. I pulled away and hugged him. When he wrapped his arms around me, baby boy started kicking.

"He definitely likes you" I laughed.