Tutor- Mashton

Chapter twelve

Ashton's pov

I woke up in a familiar feeling bed, not really sure how i got there, all i really remember is a blur of what happened, last night I assume.Michael, screaming, crying, Luke, that text, cutting, my mum, fuck! she knows! she fucking knows.

I slowly opened my eyes and felt a hand into mine, "Hi sweetie.." she said to me in a sweet tone, however that just made me feel more guilty for her to see what she did..

"You have to get ready for school now."her voice was still really calm almost like she had forgotten about yesterday. I was surprised that she didn't scream at me or ground me. Going to school was the last thing I wanted to do now. I just wanted to stay in bed and feel sorry for myself, "Do I have to?" I asked, hoping I could get out of it .

I slowly pushed my self up so I now was sitting up facing my mum for the first time in weeks. Her face looked different than I remembered but I had never taken the time to actually study her face and actually make a memory of how she looked. I felt her hand run up and down my back, stroking my back a couple times. 'Listen I'll drive you and when I get home from work we'll talk about this okay?" I guess she hasn't forgotten, in a way I'm glad, I can have someone to speak to, even if she does end up judging me like Michael did.

I pushed the thoughts of him at the back of my head, well at least tried too and slowly lifted my hands up in the air stretching out while letting out a yawn.

"I'm gonna go downstairs, you get ready and I'll see you by the door when you're ready to go?"I'm sure she meant it like a statement but it sounded more like a question, I nodded my head and watched her get up and walk out of the room.

The morning everything is going really slow, I used about ten minutes just to get out of bed and slowly walked over to my closet but stopped and looked at myself in the mirror.

I looked at my ugly reflection. My hair was getting way too long and my skin was really pale. I grabbed the flap of loose skin that I had and felt anger start to take over my mind when I just looked at every mistake and ugly part of me, totally forgetting about the few parts I liked about me.

No wonder nobody likes you! Look at yourself!

I wiped away the few remaining tears before walking over to my closet. I then removed my pajama pants that my mother must have put on me when I was totally out of it and put one some black skinny jeans. I remember Calum always telling me I was weird because I always slept with pants but no shirt. I don't know why but it was just comfortable, I Chose to wear a big hoodie, it would cover up my fat that I hated with a passion.

I walked out of my room now fully dressed, down to the kitchen, I ended up just pushing my food around on my plate not eating anything that my mum had made for me which yet again made me feel guilty.I brushed my teeth quickly before walking out meeting mum in the car.

The car travel was quick but quite. I wasn't complaining though, I liked it. Once she had parked outside the school I opened the car door and got out, not forgetting to close the car door behind me too. I took a deep breath before I walked in the school and turned around to say my goodbye to mum then walk away into school.

I walked over to my locker and than it started, Luke right there, in front of my locker, i ignored him and just opened my just opened my locker by moving around him and put my bag in and leaving my phone in my back pocket. I checked the clock on the wall and to my dismay I didn't have class for 20 minutes. The only time I want to go to class, I can't. However I just pretended Luke wasn't there and walked away.

"You got my text?" Luke said from beside following me with a smirk, making my whole body freeze.,"Erm..m-maybe..but-but what do you-"

I was cut off by Luke grabbing my upper arm and dragged me into the bathroom. He checked if anyone else was in there before throwing me in closing and locking the door of a toilet stall behind him.,"W-what-w-what are yo-"" Luke pressed his lips against mine harshly but I quickly pulled my head back in confusion and shock.

"Luke what the actual fuck?!"

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Hey guys! This chapter was done by kitty and probably legit my fave chap done by her. I'll do the next chapter hopefully tonight so I hope you enjoyed. I love y'all and keep safe xoxo