Afflictus

Holy Merlin - Part 2

Hellooooo.

okay. so i know it's been ages. But like writer block exists okay! And I am hella lazy, and I am in 10th, so wayyyyy to much work. But I still love to write. So I hope you guys still readddd.

Also this is my first chapter after I reached a 1000 views. Like what?! a 1000 of yoou thought my book was good enough to at least read some part of it?! I'm sooooo happy, and i love you all for being so amazing :)

Enjoy!

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((continued from last chapter, so like still lily's POV, and they still making out)) 

((also i can't remember how long it was to the Hogsmeade trip. If anyone of  you remember please tell me. But just for your information it's on Saturday, hence two days from now. Meaning this all happens on a Thursday.))

"James." I whispered softly as he sucked on my neck. He automatically moved his lips to mine, just to shut me up.

Right about now, i am not really sure how long it had been (around 4 minutes i suppose) since we had got back at it. But my legs were tangled with his, my arms on some part of his body, as he skillfully ate my lips.My hair was no longer in its sophisticated ponytail, but free, and the tresses were flowing off my shoulders and he was playing with my hair. He took a breath, and i had to take the chance. As much as i loved his body, i needed to take a break to think about this. I slipped away from him, and stood up. He shot up. "Lily." he started. "Don't James. This doesn't solve everything. You know that." His eyebrows scrunched up. "Why not? Look you like me, and I like you, and we both fricken love what just went down, so -" "Jamess!" I groaned. He reached out over the bed, and took my hand in his. "Lil, just listen to me -" "James!" I pulled back my hand. Can you just stand over there, in the other corner for a second?..." I swallowed hard before finishing my sentence,

"I can't think when you're touching me."

He lit up, and his signature smirk found its place on his face. I took a wary step back, realizing that no matter how far I went it probably wouldn't stop him. Think Lily!

I mean what had happened? What about Amos? This was never supposed to happen. Never in my wildest dreams (maybe, but not this bad) did i imagine a scenario like this. Maybe I never fancied Amos as much as i thought I did, or maybe I fancied James way more than I allowed myself to believe? Should I just toss one away? i mean it's not like it really matters. right? Oh but it does. I groaned softly as I tried to make some sense of what was going on. How will I find a way to make sure no one gets hurt?

James must have seen the looks of inexplicable worry on my face, and somehow I found him in front of me. "Hey." He whispered softly. He pulled me close, and hugged me to his chest, before pulling apart, and softly placing a kiss on my wrinkled temple. I lost all thoughts for a second, ad just smiled at him. "That's better. you look so pretty when you smile Lily. It'll be fine." He said after planting another kiss on my forehead."it won't." I said it quietly at first, and the louder. I stepped back. His hands still in mine. 

"it won't James! How can you just say that? You can't just kiss me a few times, and then wish everything else away!" I was worried and angry again. But James was mad too. "Lily! Why can't you just stop worrying about everyone one else, and just think about yourself for a second! What do you want?!" I stopped before shouting. "I DON'T BLOODY KNOW!" 

James slunk down. He was no longer tall and confident. His anger left him, as he tried to speak. "Well then Lil. Tell me when you figure out. Because I am tired of this too. He tightly grasped my hands once, before letting go, and walking away. Like away, away.