I Rejected The Alpha

CHAPTER 23

CHAPTER 23

ELISSA

Blake's whole body language changed in a heartbeat; his eyes were wide, his posture was stiff, and I saw him clench his hands together in fists like he was trying to hold himself back from something. The invisible force that I come to know as our bond was sparkling between us; I felt like someone had just sucked all my breath away and filled my stomach with fireworks. I felt myself wanting to be closer to him just as the words left my lips, and I didn't know if this was a bad thing or not.

I held my breath waiting for him to respond but he just kept looking at me with wide eyes. I saw his jaw lock and his eyes widen even more like he kept processing what I just said to him. Then, all of a sudden, with his eyes still wide he turned his gaze down as if he were having an inner battle with himself until his eyes soften and his lips turned up into a gentle smile. He looked back up at me and I wanted to gasp; he was giving me the same look he gave me last night in the kitchen when he was introducing me to his parents.

I knew in that moment, that Alpha Blake Martin was in love with me.

I shook my head trying to keep up with this new information but deep down inside I think I always knew. I couldn't say I loved him back, hell I don't even think I like him enough to date him just yet. I started to doubt wether or not I should have told him that I felt the bond. I don't want him getting the wrong idea then getting his hopes up. Does he think that I love him now?

I started freaking out and I could tell Blake sensed it. I saw his gaze turn until he was giving me a look of concern. He reached out and touched my shoulder and instantly I felt the bond reach from his hands to my shoulder in the same firework-like sparks that were in my stomach now on my shoulder. I gasped and nudged my shoulder away looking at him with fear; my own way of telling him to let me calm down.

I saw him nod and sit back, his own breath seemed to quicken as well. I looked down and closed my eyes giving myself deep breaths.

I counted to ten until I looked up and sighed, "I don't want to give you the wrong impression but," I started, "I feel it."

I saw Blake nod, his eyes still a little wide like he couldn't believe it.

I shook my head in confusion, "I don't get it," I spoke up, "I rejected you. Why am I feeling the bond?"

Blake shrugged, "The bond," he sighed and rubbed the back of his neck, "Is a very complicated thing. In order for it to completely break I need to accept your rejection," he started and leaned forward, "which is something that I never did," I nodded my head in understanding as he continued, "Therefore it can be mended if you in return accept me."

I nodded again and sighed, "So is it mended then?"

Blake shook his head and scratched his chest, "N-no. I would have felt it," he stated. I saw his eyes droop down like he was in pain and I took an intake a breath; I knew he was feeling some sort of pain because of me, to which I felt completely awful about and if I could, I would take it all away.

"I guess the bond you feel is the part of the bond that is me accepting you," Blake stated, "You probably have just recently acknowledged my true feelings for you?"

I nodded in consideration as I crossed my arms, "I would say that makes a lot of sense."

Blake smiled at me sincerely, "If I'm being honest," he started, his smile grew bigger and he tried to cover it by leaning against the table by his elbows and leaning his mouth on the back of his fingers, "This makes me really happy."

I gulped and looked the other way, "How did you know?"

I heard him sigh, "I never said my wolf barked because you were happy."

I turned to face him as my eyes widened, "You didn't? I swear I heard you say it."

Blake shook his head, "I thought it."

I tilted my head to the side in confusion as I waited for him to elaborate.

Blake turned towards the table to put both elbows on it as he waved his hands around, "The bond," he motioned, "Works with mates in a lot of different but incredible ways. One of the things it does is it allows mates to communicate with each other without even talking even if one of them is a human. I guess because you can feel my side of the bond you can read my thoughts."

I nodded trying to take it all in, "So, does that mean you can't read my thoughts?"

Blake nodded, "Yeah since you haven't you know," he paused and looked away, "accepted me."

I grimaced and turned to lean on the table in the same manner as Blake, "That's pretty cool," I said trying to shed some light.

Blake nodded and smiled while turning toward me again. I thought about it some more and nodded to nothing.

"Actually," I paused, processing everything, "Holy shit that's really fucking cool."

Blake laughed at me and nodded with me, "I can do that with my pack members too."

I widened my eyes and moved closer to Blake, "No shit."

Blake laughed again, "Yeah; Alpha's can communicate with his pack members and pack members can communicate with their immediate family, Alpha, and mate."

I smiled and thought about what it would be like to communicate with people without talking. I thought about Sarah and smiled even more; I thought we already mastered silent communication but it would be so damn cool to make fun of people in the room without them knowing.

I looked at Blake and smiled nervously at him, "W-what," I paused blushing, "What else does the bond do?"

Blake returned with his own blush and cleared his throat, "W-well, mates can feel each other's emotions. This includes pain or p-pleasure," Blake paused as he visibly gulped. If I wasn't so embarrassed I would have laughed at how adorable he is.

"Mate's can heal each other," he continued, "help them relax with just one touch, things like that," he nodded, "The bond is this incredible force that practically serves as a wolf's reason to live," Blake finished and laughed a little, "It's pretty amazing."

I nodded but remained silent.

A wolf's reason to live.

I shook my head not wanting to think about what that might entail for Blake. I sighed and folded my hands together, "Blake, I want to start over but," I paused trying to find the right words, "I want to know more about werewolves and really become apart of," I waved my hands around, "This family thing."

Blake nodded his head smiling widely at me, "Yeah of course," he paused and looked off to the side thinking about something. I saw his eyes brighten as he looked at me again, "Do you want to meet the pack?"