It was all I needed
A crazy distraction
Something that would take me away
I felt so good to laugh and smile
But how long would it last
Before that smile stopped
And I got lost in thought
Disappointed with myself
For letting the distraction
Stop distracting
I know they say it's a choice
But how can it be now
All I needed was this distraction
To simply have fun
The laughter felt good
I smiled bigger because you were smiling
But then I'd freeze
Nothing came from my mouth
I spoke when I could smile again
I kept you close
You knew what was wrong
You were my best distraction
But nothing
Can distract me for that long
I tried so hard to forget
Let go for a day
But each time I froze
More and more came to mind
And I realized
I never let go of something so close
The worst part is
The things that make me happy
Broke me the most
I start telling a story
Then simply stopped when I realized
What if this is all gone
Once my distraction
Was golden eyes
Burning from the sun
They turned back
And I assessed every reason why I loved them
Distractions come in many ways
But how do they stay
The three of us sat
And though I was with the people I needed to be
I was all but distracted
Tears built up
But I told myself I wouldn't cry
You both helped a lot.
All three helped a lot.
It's just me
Too stuck in reality
To ever be a princess
In a castle we created
I was screaming on the inside
But smiled to see you have fun
Thank you
For the distraction
