Falling...into the Dark.

16

Alice

I opened the front door with the spare key I was carrying. I didn't want mom to see me like this. She would have asked me questions and right now I don't have any answers. I couldn't even answer my questions...why was I so hurt? Why was I feeling cheated? Was I over acting? No I am not...his eyes spoke to me thousand words..but what about his actions? Don't think about it Alice...let it go.
My phone was ringing continuously. It was Jake. I didn't want to talk to him. He texted me.
Jake Brian- where are you?
I didn't reply.
Jake Brian- Alice I am worried...pick up my call.
Jake Brian- I know you are reading the messages..pick up my call once.
He called me several times but I didn't pick up. I was going to switch off my phone but then I saw Melissa calling.
I picked up the phone?
"Where the fuck are you Alice?" She shouted. I was calm as I was expecting it.
"I left..I wasn't feeling well"
"You could have at least informed me"
"I know I'm sorry..but I couldn't find you"
"It's okay..take care"
"Yeah..I'll talk to you tomorrow"
I was going to cut the call but she again said " umm Alice you've reached home right?"
I knew whose question it was.
"Yes I have...tell Jake he doesn't need to care" I said bitterly and cut the call.
I hate it when he acts like he cares. I don't need his fake worries. My head was paining. I took a painkiller and went to sleep.

Morning

I entered school with a determination that I'll stay away from Jake no matter what. Not because I was angry...I mean he is free to do anything he wishes...it's his life. I was doing it for me...I didn't want my feelings to grow for him in any way and with him around it's difficult.
I walked into the history class and was greeted with Max.
"Hey what happened yesterday?"
"Nothing"
"I reached and saw that you weren't there...every body was worried"
"I wasn't well so I left the party early"
"You could have informed someone specially your new best friend Jake" he winked.
"Yeah right" I rolled my eyes.
"Woah had a fight?"
"No..I don't have so much time to waste"
"Okay"
Yes I was on a rude mode today. Deal with it.
After attending three more classes I went to the cafeteria.
Jake were there with his friends. He kept looking at me. Okay relax Alice..just pretend that he is not here. I walked over to the table where Max, Case and Mel were sitting.
"Hey Ally come sit..we were talking about Halloween" Case said.
"Oh great..anyone planning to organise it?" I asked.
"I was thinking of" Max said.
"You sure?" I asked. I knew his mom hated parties.
"Oh yeah..mom will be out in the weekend" he winked.
"Oh cool"
I could see from the corner of my eye that Jake's eyes were fixed on us. It was very intimidating. Why is he looking at us when Bianca is just beside him? I got up to leave..I needed to be away from his glares.
"It's time for the class Ally" Mel said.
"Oh no I have some work..I won't attend it" I said.
All three of them looked at me as if I have told them that I am going to jump from the Brooklyn bridge.
I walked out and felt little better. His eyes are so claustrophobic. I feel trapped. I took a bus and got down near the market. It's good to be around so many people...your mind is just distracted from the thoughts. I could see pumpkin lanterns being sold everyone...so many kinds of lights...kids trying on different costumes. I love Halloween...I have loved it from when I was a kid. It was fun going to different houses and asking for sweets and stuffs. Well can't do it now. Why did I grow up? Bloody hormones. My phone buzzed. It was a message from Jake. I rolled up eyes even before I opened it.
Jake Brian- not coming to the class?
Me- no..am out..alone
Jake Brian- okay

Our conversations have become so weird. I miss the bond I shared with him..stupid heart had to spoil everything. I ate alone in my favorite cafe..Maria asked me about Jake. She thought he was my boyfriend..I cleared and misconception and she grinned so widely as if now she can get married to him. Why are girls so attracted to him? Well they haven't see how bossy he can be.
I got home and took a nap. My head felt lighter and I felt a lot better inside. Maybe a day with me was all I needed. Good job Alice I think I should date you...yeah of course we are soul mates aren't we? Hell yeah..you are the best for me..I know I know. So the day was overall fine...I did not have any other conversation with him..oh maybe he is dancing with Bianca.