Oh god! What do I do??? Sure I'll always love Andy, but I have a boyfriend. A boyfriend that is a lot more dependable than Andy will ever be. But I miss him so damn much!!! My stomach's turning into knots. My palms are sweaty and my heart is racing. I'm having an anxiety attack! Goddamnit! Just breathe Jess, everything is gonna be alright.
"I'm really tired, could I get back to you on that?" I asked. Good, I'm keeping it cool.
"Well should I give you my number?" He asked. Just a couple more minutes I need to contain this. Just breathe.
"You haven't changed it, have you?" I asked. We're doing great!
"No. Why? Did you keep it all these years?" He asked with a smirk. In and out, in and out, in and out.
"Uh yeah, for emergencies of course. Like if you got hospitalized and you were gonna die or something." I said and he chuckled.
"Okay I'll see you around." He said and leaned in placing a light kiss on my cheek.
He got in his car and left with Jinxx and Ashley. Okay let it out. I ran inside up to my bedroom and opened my makeup drawer. I grabbed my puffer and inhaled the stuff. My nerves began to calm down and I sat down on my bed.
What am I gonna do? I could tell Andy no and that I just want to be friends, but I don't like that option. His lips brought back old feelings of unrequited love. I could break up with Nate. He'd be furious, especially since he'll know exactly why I did it. And to be honest, I don't want to be that girl who moves from guy to guy, who breaks up with one guy to be with another. It just sounds like absolute ludicrous to me. There are two more options though. I could date both of them, but then I'd be a horrible person for cheating on them with one another. And finally there's the last choice. I could break up with Nate and just be single for awhile. I mean I've only dated Nate for a month and he's already asking me to move in. What if he rushes the rest of the relationship? And if Andy really loves me like I hope he does, then he'll be patient with me. Okay, well I guess the final choice is the best choice.
I'm just remembering the day I moved out of Andy's apartment. It was brutal for me. My best friend had been giving me loving affection and went out with another girl.
Flashback:
Andy and I were watching 'Dead Poets Society' because I requested it. I've always loved watching Robin Williams in a serious role, it was a whole different side of the actor. I was all cuddled up to Andy playing with his long hair. He needs to cut this soon, it's getting all matted. Andy paused the movie and looked down at me.
"I think it's time to have the talk." He said and sat up, forcing me to sit up as well.
"Andy I know what you're gonna say and I completely agree." I said. I really hope he says he wants to be with me, or proposes!!!
"I don't think you do Jessica." He just said my proper name, he's serious. "Last Saturday I went out on a date with Juliet Simms, you know her, right?" WHAT?!?!
"Of course I know who she is Andy! Why are you going out with other girls?" I'm furious.
"Well it's not like we're dating." He said trying to defend himself. Alright I'm livid.
"Then what do you call what we've been doing for the last few weeks?! What am I to you? Huh?"
"You're my best friend, and I'm sorry for confusing you."
"Oh I am so done with you Andrew!"
"That's not what I meant, you know that."
"Do I?!" I yelled. I went to my bedroom and pulled out my suitcase from underneath my bed. I grabbed all my clothing from my closet and threw it into the suitcase.
"What are you doing Jess?" He asked in an annoyed tone.
I grabbed my toothbrush from the bathroom and threw pictures of Andy and me into the trash. "What does it look like?"
"You don't have to move out." He said in my doorway.
"I don't want to stick around while you fuck girls in the other room! You really don't get it, do you?" I yelled, tears blurring my vision.
"No, I really don't. You're acting like a crazy person."
I zipped up my suitcase and then rolled it out of the room with me. "I was crazy for ever loving you, goodbye Andrew." I said softly and slammed the apartment door behind me.
I wiped my tears away and called a cab. I had the cab bring me to my parent's house. The rents will always be there when things get rough, no matter what point in your life it is. My mother gave me big hugs and helped me get my old room back together.
End Of Flashback.
I walked downstairs and outside to the back porch. My mother and father were sitting at the table enjoying their freshly made breakfast. I sat across from them.
"Okay, which one of you invited Andy to the party?" I asked with arms crossed.
"Well it was really the both of us." My father spoke up.
"Your father and I thought you'd be happy about it. It's been years since you last saw him, to be honest I was hoping you'd break up with Nathan already." My mother chimed in.
"You don't like Nate?" I asked, shocked.
"Neither of us do, he just seemed boring." My mother said making a laugh escape my mother.
"I love you two." I said.
"And we will always love you dear."
A/N Awwww, what a cute ending to the chapter. So I was wondering if you guys could tell me your thoughts and feels about the book so far. No pressure of course. I just don't know whether I'll go too far or something. Anyways, thank you all for reading what I've got so far. More soon to come :)
Till next time, bye <3
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FanfictionI've known him all my life. He's seen me at my best and my worse, and vice versa. We've always been-well there's always been something between us. But mistakes did unfold, and betrayal took over. What happens if we meet again?
