He Sings To Me

Fate

I sat in the car completely silent. All I could do was cry and think of all the possible scenarios. My mind obviously when to the first thought in my head 'miscarriage', then it went to 'I'm not fit to be a mother', which was when I shed the most tears. If I can't even do what a woman is supposed to be able to do, then what does that make me? And what now?

If it's a miscarriage, then my relationship with Alex is practically over. He'll always resent me for this and if I did have a miscarriage then I won't be able to look him in the eye. Alex called the guys on our way there, which was comforting but also completely embarrassing. I decided to call Jinxx, the keeper of Andy's phone, because I hate to admit it but I feel like I need to talk to Andy. I know, bad idea. However, he was my best friend of almost two decades, he knows me better than anyone else, so if someone is going to know what to say to me in this moment, it's him.

"Hey Jinxx, it's Jess." I said through muffles of cries.

"What are you doing?" Alex asked, but I ignored him.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Jinxx asked. It's been too long since I last heard that man's voice.

"I need to speak to Andy, it's an emergency." I said, a little more clearly this time.

"Why are you calling Andy of all people right now?" Alex asked.

"Please, just let me do this Alex." I said and placed my hand over his.

"Jess, what happened?" Andy asked.

"There's something wrong Andy." I said and the tears became heavier again. "There's something wrong with the baby, there's something wrong with me."

"Why? What happened?" He asked.

"I'm bleeding. Alex is taking me to the hospital right now."

"Okay, we'll be there soon."

"Thank you." I said and hung up. I turned to Alex, "I called him because as much as I hate to admit it, I need him right now, but not as much as I need you."

We got to the hospital and I was immediately rushed into a room. A nurse took an ultrasound as the doctor took a look at my downstairs.

"The baby is okay for right now, but we need to treat for this now." The doctor stated.

"What's happening?" I asked.

"It appears that you have bacterial vaginosis, which tends to happen to about 25% of women during pregnancy. We'll give you treatment that will not harm the baby, but we got lucky on this one." The doctor said and then took the nurse aside.

"Did you hear that? Everything's going to be okay." Alex stated and I began to calm down.

"Doc!" I yelled, grabbing back his attention. "How did this even happen?"

"Well there is bacteria just about everywhere including your vagina. There are good and bad bacterias and when there are less of the good bacteria, well this happens. It could be caused by anything, and you could of had it before you were pregnant and there were no symptoms. Now the nurse will take care of you, I have to tend to other patients now."

I nodded and laid back in the bed. Alex sat down in the chair next to me, still holding my hand.

"So why didn't you tell me that Andy and you were friends again?" He asked.

I shrugged, "I don't know, I guess I didn't think it was important enough to mention." I said.

"You becoming friends with your drug abusing ex is kinda important."

"Alex, I don't know why you're getting so upset. You keep information from me all the time, how is this any different?" I asked.

"Because you were in love with him."

"I was, as in past tense. I'm yours Alex." I could tell that he was still worked up about the baby situation and that this was just his way of expressing that. I kissed his hand, "We're yours."

He leaned up and kissed me. When we released from our kiss the nurse came in to give me my medicine. Soon after, I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I had my four boys sitting around me, asleep in their chairs. Rian drooling, Zack snoring, Jack shaking, and Alex murmuring in his sleep. I poked Alex a few times to wake him up and he nearly fell off his chair when he finally did.

"Good morning beautiful." He said which made me smile.

"Morning handsome. What happened when I was out?" I asked.

"Andy got here just after you fell asleep, so I told him what's up and that he could visit you after you leave today. Then the boys arrived an hour later and didn't want to leave your side, especially when I told them that you wanted them all to be the baby's godfathers."

I hit his arm, "You told them without me? How could you?"

"If you forgive me I'll get you pie."

"Forgiven."

The doctor walked into the room and smirked at the sleeping boys. "You can go home now. Your husband will need to sign off of your medication and you'll be good to go." She said.

"Uh before you go, can you do an ultrasound?" I asked.

"Oh yeah, we haven't gotten one of those, have we?" Alex asked.

"Well then we better do that."

The doctor left the room and came back with the machine. Alex woke up the boys and they all crowded on my left to watch the doctor do her work.

"You see right there?" She asked as she pointed to an area on the screen. "That's the baby's head. Oh and that right there," she moved her finger, "that's one of the baby's hands."

"Can we find out the gender?" Rian asked.

"No!" I said a bit louder than I should have. "I don't wanna find out just yet."

"So would you like a picture or a video?" She asked.

Alex and I looked at each other for a moment, "A picture." We said at the same time.

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