The Choice: A YouTuber x Reader Fanfiction

Chapter 6: Too Many Emotions

Your Perspective: (Okay let's just assume now that It's always your perspective unless I say otherwise XD)

The second we got back to the hotel, I ran upstairs and into the room. I knew Zoe and Joe were downstairs, so right after I changed into my yellow dress I flopped on the bed and stared at the ceiling. What am I going to do? Obviously he's amazing but... Do I really like him that much? Am I even past the fangirl stage?

I heard a knock on the door and jumped so hard I fell off the bed. "Oww!" I exclaimed, going over to open the door. "Oh, hey Joe."

"Hey, I was just wondering if you were okay, you've been up here for awhile."

"I have?"

"It's noon."

"...Oh. Sorry, I thought I had more time and..." I ran to the mirror in the bathroom and brushed my hair.

"I'm sure it's alright if we're a few minutes late." he said. I grabbed my makeup bag and threw on my makeup as quickly as possible, ignoring a disapproving look from Joe when I pulled out another makeup bag that I only use when I'm trying to impress people.

"You don't need to impress anyone, they're going to love you. Just be yourself, (Y/N)." Why did I tell him about this makeup case? Mental facepalm.

"I just feel like they're not going to like me."

"The way you look isn't going to change your first impression, trust me." He placed his hand on my shoulder. I set down my bag.

"...Okay."

Then suddenly I burst into tears. I don't know why, I didn't even know that I was sad, but one second I was fine, and the next Joe was wrapping me in a hug and I was sobbing on his shoulder.

"Hey! Hey, shhh," he whispered in my ear, "It's alright, don't worry, shhh."

By this point I had fallen on my knees, and Joe sat on the floor and pulled me onto his lap. He was rubbing my back comfortingly and whispering to me to calm me down, and it took about five minutes to stop hyperventilating. I covered my face with my hands and leaned into his chest.

"Are you okay?" he asked quietly.

"I don't know," I answered honestly. "I don't even know what I'm freaking out about most to be honest." My voice was much braver than I felt.

"Did you wanna head down there then?"

"Just give me a second..." I said, shakily standing up. He pushed my hair behind my ear and ran his thumb underneath my eyes to wipe away the mascara on my skin.

"There. All better." he said. I looked in the mirror, and my heart dropped. My face was splotchy and red, and my eyes were a mess. I got a cloth wet and washed my face completely. "See, you're beautiful with and without that stuff."

"Thank you."

"I've already told you that."

"I meant for everything," I clarified, "You helped alot."

"Oh. You're welcome, I guess. I just want you to be okay," he said, "This is probably the biggest day ever for you, right?" I nodded with a pathetic smile. "Then enjoy it!"

"Okay, let's go downstairs then." I decided. He smiled wide and took my hand to lead me to the lobby. I plastered a smile on my face and told myself to be happy. I was going to meet people that I spent so long being influenced by. And they were coming to see me on purpose, as equals... Squeal! The lobby was empty besides Zoe, and Joe and I went over to her.

"Where is everyone?" Joe asked.

"They're all going to be here pretty soon. Most of them left a while ago," she explained, staring at her phone and texting away furiously. She seemed quite flustered, for some reason, but I didn't ask why.

"Oh, good." I sighed. I had a few more minutes to compose myself. I tugged on the end of my dress skirt and bit my lip. I had to stay calm. Around all of those amazing people that I've been dying to meet for years. I had my work cut out for me.

Author's Note!

Alright guys, I'm not updating again for a while, and I know I'm not even to the party yet!!! Sorry, maybe MAYBE I'll update tonight. Anyways, hope you liked this chapter, love you all!

Savy Pearson