I woke up and realized what happened yesterday I went to get up to go to the bathroom but I fell and had a seizure
Wonho came in a dropped the coffee on the floor "help we need a nurse" and then everything went black
I woke up with needles in me and a tube up my nose "what's going on?" I asked but I heard the sobs of wonho "you had a seizure it would appear that you need to have the chemo now because you are just getting worse" the doctor said
"Okay doctor" I said in defeat wonho and my dad must be a mess "can we start tomorrow" I asked "yes but you will have to shave your hair tonight" the doctor said and I nod
It was about 2 am when I got and walked to the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror and started crying I grabbed the razor and turned it on
I cried really loud trying to shave my head there was snot on my face from crying so much and wonho ran in
"Baby it's okay sh" he said and grabbed a tissue to wipe my face off "look at me" he said but I couldn't "look at me" he shouted so I looked at him
"It's going to be okay baby I promise you that let me shave your head it's the first step okay? We will handle all of this together we are married now and I will be there every step of the way through sickness and health I love you" he said "I love you so much" I cried and he hugged me
And he began shaving my head again I really dont want all of my hair to go but if it means I could live just a little bit longer to see wonho I'm okay with it
I woke up from the doctor and I got ready for chemo "okay when we get chemo started you can allow one visiter in the room now since you are married that makes wonho your guardian so he will be the one in there since it's your first treatment you will only have 6 hours of it but as time progresses you will have to do 8-12 hours" he said and I nod
It's been 2 hours since chemo and it burns really bad I want to cry "I know baby it hurts but hang in there I'm here I wish I could take your pain away my love I'd take it away in a heart beat just to see you smile" he said but I still smiled for him
He held my hand and sang me songs until I fell asleep
I woke up in my room the doctor was right chemo does take a lot out because I slept the whole day and half of this day
"Oh you're finally up love?" He asked "yes" I said and he kissed my forehead it made me feel warm inside and I absolutely love that feeling
Him and I cuddled all day not really caring about anything it was so perfect I loved it I want everyday like this for the rest of my life
