June 16th 2017
Soon my time will come I don't know exactly when but I can feel it coming
Like a stomach ache I feel it coming I wonder if it will hurt or if I will just die in my sleep...soon I will find out
When I was younger I always wondered about death what it would be like after death, would I just die and go to heaven to watch over my loved ones or will I be reincarnated into a human or animal
My time on earth is ending and I'm trying to be okay with this
I've come along well with the terms that this time no miracle will happen and I will not wake up again I'm leaving behind the love of my life..
July 13th 2017
I feel it I feel my days are limited I might be leaving soon
July 20th 2017
I said my goodbyes to my friends and dad yesterday oh how I'm sad I couldn't stop crying how could I be okay with dying
Tonight...tonight is the night I die I can feel it in my bones I'm leaving
"I wonder if I can see my mom again" I said he sniffled "I'm sure you will see her I'm positive" he said
I cried "Wonho don't cry" I said he kissed me "I love you" he said "I love you" I said
He held me in his arms "it's okay Hyungwon...It's okay I know...you gave up the moment it came back...it's okay to leave" he cried and kissed my head
"Please take care of Kailin and yourself please don't give up because I have" I said "I won't" He said I nod
We fell asleep
*wonhos pov*
I heard his monitor go flat as the doctors rushed in I was pulled away crying my eyes out
There he is the love of my life laying cold dead lifeless on the hospital bed I felt weak and uneasy
I love you Hyungwon I'll love you forever
July 26th 2017
We had a funeral for him..everyone was crying..
*Hyungwons pov*
July 20th 2017
We fell asleep and eventually I felt myself lift from my body I just watched it all happen I was standing there watching the panic
I saw my dead body laying on the hospital bed I looked pale I couldn't handle that
July 26th 2017
They had a funeral I couldn't bare to see my family cry...
Will I just be forever stuck in purgatory watching my family be sad because of me...
