September 16th 2017
"I have been looking around for you forever" I said "Hyungwon dear why are you dead?" She asked
"I died the same way you died.." I said she sighed "you're too young to be dead" she said "so were you" I said
I cried "what's the matter baby?" She asked "Mom my husband is throwing his life away...what if he dies?" I asked "then he would stop suffering" she said
*Hoseok pov*
September 26th 2017
They want me to get help but how can I stop?
"If you don't stop this then you're going to die!" Kihyun shouted "maybe I want to!" I yelled back
"W-what?" He asked "I'm nothing without him Kihyun, absolutely nothing I feel like my heart will give out at anytime I can't breathe right since he left I'm lost Im hurting I can't do this anymore" I cried
He cried "don't say things like this Kailin needs you...we need you...if you can't stop for us...stop for Hyungwon what would he think if he knew you do this" Kihyun said
And that right there is when I knew he was right Hyungwon would hate me...
"Okay...I'll go get help" I said he hugged me
I checked myself into a hospital
October 5th 2017
I'm getting better...they are helping me
I'm going to get better for everyone in my life
October 20th 2017
They say I can leave soon and I'm so happy!
November 4th 2017
I left today went back to my house "I missed you!!!" Kailin yelled and ran to me
My heart broke "I'm so sorry baby girl" I said "it's okay! I understand how hard it was losing your best friend" she said I smiled "how's school going baby girl?" I asked
"Good seventh grade is so different from sixth" she said I smiled I can tell things are going to get better from now on
*6 months later*
Hoseok hasn't answered my calls in a day or two I wonder if everything is okay...
We still have Kailin we have to keep her for a few more months just until he proves he can be a dad again
"Watch Kailin while I go check on Hoseok" I said he nods
I walk over and knock on the door no answer knock again
I opened the door it was unlocked he shouldn't leave the door unlocked like that someone might break in
I had to check every room yelling his name to find out where he is
I walked in a room and I felt like my eyes were lying to me I screamed bloody murder
I heard running and Changkyun came up "oh my god..." He said he picked me up and covered my eyes Kailin ran in and yelled too
I quickly grabbed her and brought her out of the room she couldn't stop crying
"Changk stay with her.." I said "okay I'll call the ambulance" he said trying to be calm
I walked back in to just see my best friend...hanging...lifelessly from the ceiling "Wonho you idiot" I said
I found a note
"Dear Whoever finds this,
If you're reading this then I'm dead I finally did it... I tried to be happy I tried so hard but how can I be happy...? Selfish right? I died a long time ago...I love my family I'm sorry...
Love Hoseok."
