January 30th 2017
I have been feeling very sick lately and I'm just hoping that it's not my cancer...
I was throwing up with Wonho rubbing my back I leaned back into his arms and cried
"What's wrong baby" he said "what.....what if my cancer is back" I asked "you haven't had for a while baby boy....I hope it's not true.... We will go to the doctors tomorrow okay?" He said
I nod and sniffled he picked me up "come on baby let's go get you something to eat" he said I nod and wrapped my arms around his neck and placed my head on his chest
He set me down and dried my eyes he started making food for us
Kailin was at school and I really don't want her to know about this
January 31st 2017
"What brings you here today?" My doctor asked "I think my cancer is back" I said this is the doctor that preformed on me before
"Hm okay" he said and did some tests on me while Wonho held my hand "okay I'll send these to the lab and I'll call you to come in when we get the results" he said "okay thank you" I said
February 7th 2017
My doctor called and now I'm here
"So the results are back" he said I nod and squeeze Wonhos hand "your cancer is back.....it's pretty bad" he said
My heart sank....my cancer is back....? "Am I going to die?" I asked "well it's not certain but eventually you'll have to come stay at the hospital for treatment" he said I nod
We went home after all the information was giving and I just broke down and cried
"Baby it's okay we are going to be okay I .....I'll think of something" he said I kissed him "I love you" I said "don't say that" he said
"What do you mean?" I asked "that sounds like a goodbye" he said I looked down "you aren't dying on me Shin Hyungwon you better fight....fight for me....fight for the little girl who looks up to you" he said I nod "you're right" I said
I kissed him "let's fight together" he said
(Idk what this story is anymore)
