5sos & 1d Smut

Louis: I Need I Want

Cute and Sappy baby and marriage involved.

My boyfriend of three years and I sat on his couch watching one of his football games. I loved football and always watched them with Louis but tonight I wasn't really feeling it and had other things on my mind.

"Louis?" I asked with a small sigh as I leaned on his arm.

"Yeah love?" He asked back without even looking at me.

"We've been dating for a long time now." I said and he laughed. He was never phased by my endless and random talking so this was normal to him.

"We make four years in March." He answered back and I smiled as he kept his eyes on the screen.

"Yeah and we've been through a lot together." I babbled on trying to figure out a way to tell him what I really wanted to say.

"We have. And you've been so amazing with me going on tour and everything." He said and I knew what he meant by 'everything' his baby and former pregnant lover. That was hard. We were on a break after a huge fight over being together or not and he went and had sex with this girl. I was devastated and right after he told me and somehow we made it through that.

Then we got the news that he'd be a dad. As of today I'm surprisingly okay with it, people make mistakes and contraception isn't 100%. Louis still wants to partake in the child's life and is just friends with the mother and I've met her multiple times and she honestly is super sweet.

But the funny thing is that I was about to give Louis my virginity just before he got the news of being a father. I was ready and wanted to do the deed but that didn't happen. And now 8 months later I'm still a virgin. I tried hinting at it after he found out but his sex drive just dropped to the point where I had to please myself and him eating me out once. That's right once and he was completely drunk that night while I was sober and that was just odd.

"Love is everything okay?" He asked still keeping his eyes on the screen while he brought me out of my thoughts.

"Yes everything–you know what. No everything is not okay!" I said frustrated and that's when he looked at me.

"What do you mean–"

"I've been wanting to have sex with you for the longest time but you were and still are dealing with this child drama that you don't even care about pleasing the woman that had been here with you through it all! And I'm trying to tell you but I don't want it to be all about me but here we are watching a football game and you don't even look at me! It's just not fair!" I yelled loudly which took both of us by surprise. I covered my mouth as felt tears streaming down my face. "I'm sorry just forget that I ever said this." I said and ran up the stairs into the bathroom.

I sat on the toilet and cried. I felt so selfish and yet underappreciated. Everything was swirling in my head and I didn't know how to stop it.

"Love? Do you want to talk about this?" He asked and I nodded my head. "You need to speak I can't see you move your head." He said right after and I couldn't help but laugh.

"I want to talk about it." I answered.

"Do you want to unlock the door?" He asked and I took a deep breath and unlocked the door. We stood there face to face and I walked back into the bathroom and sat at the end of the tub. Louis followed suit and sat in front of me.

"Can we start from the beginning?" He asked and I have a small nod.

"I was going to tell you that I was ready to lose my virginity to you but then you got the news about the baby." I said in a low voice looking down.