Tomorrow, still Today| (Kim Taehyung)

Nocturnal Skies (Part 3)

-"... oh cause I found love where it wasn't supposed to be... right in front of me... talk some sense to me..."-

"Taehyung... wake up..."

There's something cold and wet on my forehead and my eyes slowly open. I'm dizzy, it's like all my blood is rushing around in my body, not stopping for once to fully fill my organs up.

I groan as I seat myself up, still not fully by my senses. I blink slowly when I finally can make out the person next to mine.

I swallow rather harshly when I see Sana's face, so close next to me, freezing up. But there are trails of tears on her cheeks and so much concern and regret in her eyes and I think for a second. What happened?

And then, slowly, then all at once, everything comes back to me.

The pills, Sana, Jungkook, the knife, my dream, clouds, Jungkook sinking.

I choke for a second and start sobbing right after. Sana gives me a pained look when I curl my knees up to my chest and she scrambles up to sit next to me on my bed, the wet towel leaving her hands, as she reaches out to cup my face.

"It's okay now... you know now, finally..."

I know it. The truth. I stare into her eyes, disbelief showing in mine as she looks back, with this completely calm look in her eyes. Her hair is messed up and she looks done.

"You're innocent... it wasn't you, Tae...", she whispers and her voice breaks as I put my forehead against hers, drowning in that incredible feeling.

It wasn't me.

"It's not... my fault", it comes out like a question and Sana shakes her head, forehead further pressing against mine, but softly.

"No, Taehyung... it wasn't", and a soft laugh escapes her lips and I don't hesitate when I bring my arms away from my knees to pull her into a tight hug.

She still laughs as she wraps her arms around me in return, cuddling into my chest and I sigh out for a moment.

It's weird. Thinking, that I'm innocent. I frown a little after a while.

Still, Jungkook killed himself. And I still don't really know why.

I feel her smile sink for a second on my shoulder, as her hands squeeze a little tighter, still comfortable.

"Tae", I can't help but smile a little at that familiar nickname. My eyes close shortly after that. "You didn't kill Jungkook. But you also weren't the reason that he killed himself, do you hear me?"

I am silent for a while, biting down on my lower lip as my head leans against hers. I breathe out.

"I guess, we'll have to figure that out. Why he killed himself", Sana whispers.

"I don't know, how I'll do it", I answer, once completely honest. Once, telling my feelings. Sana leans back for a second, meeting my eyes and they are so full of everything.

And as I nearly choke on my breath, I realize it's everything I've ever wanted ever since three years ago.

Understanding.

And love.

Her hand reaches out to tussle my hair and I drown in those beautiful eyes for a while.

"How about we do it together?", she suggests and I can't help but let the smile escape my lips. In return, I get the most real smile of her, the one that I wished for forever.