The pain is excruciating and like all the other times before, I ask myself, when it will end.
I try to convince myself, that this will be over soon. But I know that I'm wrong.
"Please..." I manage to whisper through my clenched teeth. I know, that if I'd let my eyes open right now, the steady glaring light would make me go blind.
I have seen it too often already. I'm tired of it.
I feel sweat forming on my forehead, making me wish to just be able to wipe it away.
"But, Mr. Kim Taehyung. There's only one pill left."
One pill. Overkill.
I shake my head vigorously as the pain is taking over my body. The sweet voice reminds me of every single time, I have been hurt in this room.
My home.
The pain is scratching on my body, my inside. It bores into my intestines and my limbs, making my body go numb but at the same time feel everything.
This pain is different.
And as she bends down again, this time, I voluntarily open my mouth again.
I'm ready to be hurt again.
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"Jungkook-ah. What is this?"
I nudge my best friend's shoulder, as we calmly lie down in the grass. It's wet from the midnight rain, that occured almost an hour ago.
"I don't know. Looks like a butterfly."
"Huh? A butterfly? What would a butterfly make here. In the middle of the night."
At that moment, I didn't know yet, that you could find the most unbelievable things, as soon as you are calm.
I learned it only after a long time. A long time, when I once felt calm again.
Silence makes you question the things around you. It makes you look closer towards the trees around you and lets your friends walk in the front.
Silence makes you grow suspicious of everything and that was what Jungkook and I liked the most.
Mysteries.
We had our mind set on mysteries, only yet to be discovered why.
Mysteries are different than lies.
Turns out that these two things got mixed up in the progress.
Turns out that a lie is more believable than a mystery. At least from my mouth.
In the end, everything that we became turned out as a lie. When we just wanted to be something else.
To me, I slowly accepted the fact, that it was all my fault.
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Tomorrow, still Today| (Kim Taehyung)
Fanfiction- Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth. - Insane, that's what they say. One single word to describe everything that happened, and why it had to happen sooner or later- Insanity. note: everything about the mental illnesses and treatme...
