Tomorrow, still Today| (Kim Taehyung)

Sunrise (Part 2)

-"The day, the light, the wind and all of the forgotten opportunities."-

The sun hits my face. My favourite time. To be honest, it has been long, since I've last seen the sunrise. Combined with the wind and the cold, it feels almost comforting.

Watching it for a few seconds, my gaze travels to Taehyung. And my heart tears a little at his form, absolutely stunned. His mouth is a little open and his lower lip quivers, but everything in his eyes tells me, that he doesn't care right now.

He looks so absorbed, as if this is his best comfort, his shelter and I unknowingly begin to smile. He looks at me and our eyes meet and he looks like he's in joy, what I've never seen in his eyes before.

It's beautiful.

My eyes stop at his, as I watch him closely. He looks cold, tired. He's pale. But I've never seen him so alive... and then he smiles.

And it catches me off guard at how beautiful his smile is. It's rectangular, like a box. And I search his eyes for an answer, is it real?

And his eyes are so promising.

I feel my heart beat faster, when I simply smile back, not knowing, that I've been smiling all the way.

His smile stays on his lips for a long time, even when he turns around to the rising sun again, that makes his skin appear to glow.

I don't know, why I do it, I don't know, where my mind has gone, but I scoot closer and lay my head onto his shoulder.

With that, he freezes against me and his head snaps into my direction. I quickly lean back, eyeing him, waiting but cursing under my breath.

What the hell am I doing? What am I thinking? What are you, Moon Sana? You're his psychiatrist. What are you, Moon Sana?

Are you in love?

You're mad, that's what you are. And you can't set boundaries.

Honestly, I didn't ever think, this was one of my problems. I always made sure, to keep my distance. Not just from patients but everyone. I made my life out of it.

I was good in shutting the world out.

So why am I here now, a nervous wreck, biting my lip and waiting for his reaction?

But his head snaps into my direction and I see a tiny faint of red creeping over his own cheeks, as he quickly lowers his head.

I lower my head too, clenching my eyes. "I'm sorry."

He looks at me again and gives me another one of his smiles as he looks towards the sunrise again, really small, but it still knocks the wind out of me.

"Don't be."

I smile at that and sit still, not really watching the sun anymore. It won't be long till it stands high on the sky and I'm scared of that.

Then, everything will be back to normal.

I hope, the hospital won't notice, that one of the patients is missing. They open up at seven.

I hesitate.

"Taehyung, tell me something", I simply say but carefully watch his reaction. He's silent for a few seconds, his gaze still on the view in front of him.

And yes, the sun is rising, the city is still calm and the air cold and I believe, he thinks the same as I think because he actually opens his mouth.