Let Me Love You

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Justin's POV

After knocking on the apartment door, I take a step back and bounce on my toes impatiently, I know it is inconsiderately late but I could not make myself go to sleep. I have to talk to Ariana. I knock on the door a little harder this time then step back again, I nervously chew on my lip as I try to calm down. No one is answering the door and I am getting even more anxious by the second. I raise my fist to knock on the door again, but I hear it begin to open. I freeze up and dart my hand back down—but it is only Alexa.

I sigh and rub my head awkwardly

"Justin, what the hell? It's almost five in the morning" she grumbles at me and covers her chest, I can guess she is not wearing a bra, not that I would care to look at her chest anyways. I know that this sounds unbelievable and dumb, but no one is as attractive to me as Ariana is. I do not find myself drooling over girls like I used to, I feel like I already have—or had—the most beautiful woman in the world.

"I know, I'm really sorry. Is Ariana here? I need to talk to her" I say frantically bounce on my toes again

"She's sleeping...just like I was" Alexa says, suggesting that she wants me to leave

"I know, I'm sorry. Can I go talk to her?" I ask

"Why? What is so important that you need to tell her?" She huffs, "And why can't you wait until everyone is awake?"

I bite my lips and grunt in frustration, "Please let me go talk to her" I say forcefully, "I fucked up and I can't sleep without explaining myself to her. I can't think about anything else knowing that she's upset and it's killing me. Please, for the sake of Ariana's happiness...let me fix this..."

Alexa looks around and thinks before she decides on letting me in or not, I know that Ariana will not be pleased with Alexa for letting me in, but this is more important than them having a little argument.

"Please" I beg, "I promise I won't even bother you"

Alexa sighs and rubs her face in annoyance. If she does not let me in, I am either coming in on my own or I will sit out here and wait until Ariana wakes up. I will talk to her. Finally, Alexa steps out of the way and allows me inside. I quickly enter and follow her up their short stairway, it's only a small elevation to their hallway that leads to their bedrooms.

"She's in there" She points limply at the second door that we pass and continues walking back to what I can assume is her bedroom.

I take a deep breath and slowly let it out, I grab the handle and carefully open her door. My eyes adjust to the dark lighting and I see her asleep in bed, her hair is sprawled out across her pillow, with her mouth slightly parted, the palm of her hand is tucked under her cheek, and I see that she has the ring I gave her still secured on her slender finger. I savor this moment, seeing her laying there so peacefully, not mad at me, not upset, not crying. She is just sleeping, without a worry in the world. I gently place my hand on her shoulder and rub her arm, trying to carefully wake her. She moans lightly as her eyebrows scrunch together, and I crouch down to talk to her.

"Ariana" I whisper and continue to rub her shoulder. She groans and opens one of her eyes to see who is talking to her. When she sees it is me, both of her eyes open fully and she does not look pleased.

"Hey" I try to smile normally, but honestly I am afraid she is about to hit me. She does not move at all, her eyebrows are still pulled together and her angry eyes haven't moved from mine.

"What are you doing here?" she hisses at me and forcefully removes my hand from her shoulder

"Um, I couldn't sleep" I say and stand back up straight