Rexy's Pov
"Here's your white roses ma'am" the sales lady said.
"Thank you" I pay for the rose and go to the car.
"Let's go" I said to the driver.
I glance to the roses.
"White Roses for you, my beautiful girlfriend" Minho said to me while giving a bouquet of white roses. We're having a date in fancy restaurant.
"Wow. This is so beautiful. Thank you" I said to him.
"Just like you" he said to me.
After a couple of minutes the driver stops driving.
I walk until I reach his thumb. It's clean and there are some flowers already. Maybe Sulli or his friends came here earlier .
I sit down and put the roses on the side of his thumb.
"It's your first death anniversary" I said. "I didn't realize that it's been one year already." I added.
I know no one will answer me.
"It's been one year but the pain is still the same" my voice break.
I don't want to cry! Shit!
"Minho I have my boyfriend now" I said shyly. I don't know why. But for me it's really awkward.
"His a great man, .... just like you" I said. "I know he loves me" I added.
I look at the roses.
"Look, I brought you white roses" I'm trying my voice to sounds lively.
"Remember when you said that you brought this white roses cause its beautiful just like me?" I said. "Well, I brought you some cause it's beautiful just like you too " I said.
I didn't notice that I'm already crying.
"I miss you. But, I know you're happy now" i said while crying. "No more pains" I said.
I let myself cry.
"Iha" I heard his mom's voice.
I look up and smile at her.
She sit besides me and give me a hug.
"Don't cry. He doesn't want you to see in this kind of state" his mom said.
"I miss him" I said between my sobs.
"I miss him too iha" she said to me.
I look at her. She's smiling at me.
"You know what I'm Very thankful that God gave my son a very lovely girl" she said to me.
I feel shy that time. Do I have to say that I'm already in a relationship?
"Thank you" I said to her. I look at her eyes
"Auntie I have something to tell you" I said to her.
"Sure. What is that?" She ask me.
"I have.... I have boyfriend" I said.
"Really iha? I'm so happy for you" she said to me.
"You're not mad?" I ask her.
She shook her head.
"Minho told me that I have to remind you that life must go on, but unfortunately I mourn so much. And I forgot you dear. I'm so sorry." She said to me
"I understand. It's okay." I said to her. "We both mourning that time" I added.
"I'm really happy for you iha. So, whos that lucky man?" She ask me.
"His Do Kyungsoo Frome Exo" I started. Then tell her everything.
"That's sweet iha. I'm glad that you're happy now. That you have someone now" she said.
"Thanks Auntie" I said while smiling.
"Minho you're happy right?" She said to the thumb.
We both laugh. We know that his happy for me.
After an hour his mom and I decided to go home. We said goodbye to each other.
"Iha always remember that there is no reason for you not to be happy. Minho is already happy above. By the way, did Sulli gave you the CD?" she said. I nod at her. "watch it later iha. okay? Good bye" she said. I wave my hand and watch her disappeared.
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When I got home. I go to my room and watch the CD.
I'm shock when I see Minho's face.
"Hi honey. I know you're shock. Well, I know it will be 1 year of my death when you watch this.... I told to my mom that she have to give this CD in my first death anniversary... I'm sorry .... " he said to the video.
"I talk to the doctor today... and he told me that I can't live any longer...that's why I decided to make this video... " he said.
When I look at the date it's August 2015.
2 months before he passed away.
"I don't want to leave you but I don't have any choice. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." His crying now.
I feel my tears flowing to cheeks.
"I know I will hurt you so much when I died. And I'm sorry for that. I don't want to hurt you honey. You know that right? I don't want to see you in pain. That's why when I'm with you I always smiled...... I know that you're having a hard times taking care of me.... but still you stick to my side. And I'm very thankful to that." He said.
"Honey please be strong.... don't let yourself suffer when im gone... when I die I will thank God for giving me such a girl like you.... You mean so much to me honey. You're my everything. " He said between his sobs.
I'm crying so hard.
"When I'm gone... continue your life... Be the woman you wanted to be honey... Fall in love again..... I want to be selfish but I cant.... I will be happy if you fall in love again.... honey I know I will be forever in your heart and you will be forever in my heart too.....but please try to set me aside. " He said. I know his in pain while saying those things.
"Don't be selfish to yourself... be happy again honey. Smile again... to that I will be the happiest man." He said.
"I love you so much. I love you so much. But I'm sorry to tell you that I can't show it anymore.... thank you for staying by my side. thank you for loving me. thank you for showing me what the world and happiness means. thank you for being my companion in good and bad times. Thank you honey. For all the hugs and kisses that you gave to me. For all the smiles and laughters that you shared with me. I will forever treasure that. And I will love you forever Park Rexy" he said. His looking at the camera. His tears are flowing.
"Minho......... i love you" I said between my sobs.
I can't breath properly because I cried so much....
"Thank you Minho" I said when the video end.
His right. I have to be happy. And I know I found my happiness again.
