Unchained Love

Kabanata 7

A and C

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang magiging reaksyon ko, magiging masaya ba ako dahil nandito siya at napakalapit sa akin. Siguro, hindi ko maipaliwanang ang kakaibang nararamdaman ko. Ang kanyang kakaibang mata na pinakapaborito ko ang umagaw sa atensyon ko, pero may kulang. Oo alam ko. Wala na ang dating kislap kapag tumitingin siya sa akin, wala na ang dating saya sa tuwing makikita niya ako. Masakit makita ang mga mata niya, mga mata niyang wala nang pagmamahal na natitira.

I was shocked that he's here, did he saw me earlier in the most embarrassing moment of my life? Wow that's great huh, really. He laughed his ass to death for sure. Nakakahiya pero bakit ba, ginawa ko iyon for the sake of my love for him. I know how pathetic that move is. Nakakatawang isipin na dahil sa pagmamahal nakakagawa ako ng mga bagay na di ko inaasahan. Ikinabigla ko ang sunod niyang ginawa, tinitigan niya ako at lalong inilapit niya ang kanyang mukha at lalong hindi ko na ata masundan ang bilis ng tibok ng aking puso.

One year had passed and still he has this kind of effect on me, my heart still beats for him and I'm not surprised at all. Why would I, as if I'm not aware of it. Hindi ko matagalan ang kanyang mga mga titig at kahit ang pagiging malapit niya ay hindi ko ata kakayanin pa kung hihigit pa isang minuto ang tagpo na ito, kaya naman minabuti kong umiwas ng tingin at umatras palayo. But his expression made me feel that it was a wrong move. The uneasiness poured my system at hindi ko gusto ang susunod na magagawa ko kung hindi ko makokontrol ang aking emosyon.

I hate myself feeling this way akala ko ay matagal na akong natapos sa estado na ito, hindi pa pala. If someone will ask me if I still love him? And if I'm okay with it? Yes. I still love him, I never stopped loving him. But I'm not happy, I love him and he don't. Who would be happy with it? I'm sure, no one will. I never regret loving him, he gave me so much to remember, good or bad. I cherished and treasured all those moments. Pero sa kanya ba may halaga pa iyon? O baka naman pilit na niya iyong ibinabaon sa limot, pinipilit na ipaniwala sa sarili na hindi nangyari ang mga iyon na para bang parte ang mga alaalang iyon ng isang masamang panaginip. I felt thousand knives stabbed at my back with that thought.

Breaking up with him never crossed my mind, I never thought we would become strangers, again. I remembered the days we talked about our future, the future ahead us. When I met him I'm perfectly sure that we'll both end up together but the destiny has its way of playing sick games with us, maybe destiny forgot that were deeply in love with each other. People will never understand the pain that your almost happy ending cost you. It was devastating. I felt I was betrayed by everyone. Cupid must be really fucked up that time, maybe he was busy drinking, drowning himself to death because he and Psyche had a misunderstanding so Destiny slipped in to his hands and meddle into our business. Destiny changed our happy ending to a tragic one. No one dared to tell me that my so called boyfriend ...ex boyfriend rather and his best friend enjoying each other's company? Is there a fulfillment when they were playing with fire and pleasure in addition?

Did they had sex, make out and the likes? Maybe.

Did they enjoy one hot and steamy sex? Or maybe several times.

I loathe her, I trusted her. Lady.

FUCK SHIT LADY!!!! FUCK. Shit George, you're being a bitch now.

"Georgina"

I came back to my senses when Augustus called me by my first name. And it stunned the shit of me, so were back to first name basis huh? What the. I saw a plastered grinned in his face saying that "Yes Georgina, I Called you in a way you will realize you're not special to me anymore." I closed my fist with that thought. How could he? He's really enjoying this huh? Fuck you Augustus, I won't give you the satisfaction. I'm starting to hate myself for my stupidity.