Dinner was nice, a little awkward but nice; awkward because I didn’t really know what to do as I couldn’t slip a word in with the talkative family but nice because everyone seemed so happy to be together, it was nice. After dinner and some general chat Rose was off, taking Rachel to where ever she needed to be. We sat in the living room, Jessie playing something on her phone, Stephen sitting on the other couch watch tv and me leaning on Jessie reading my book. I just couldn’t get over the whole atmosphere of this family so calm and together.
“Girls, it’s 10 and I think it might just me time to head off to bed.” Stephen said turning on the tv, I stand up and look at Jessie who hasn’t taken her eyes off her phone. “Jessie c’mon, bed.” I said taking away her phone. I did it in a way that wouldn’t get a big response, if I were to snatch it she would’ve ran after me but I simply took it from her hands and locked it walked a little before she caught up and handed it back to her. I was tired and I wasn’t feeling all too well so I just wanted to go to bed a normal time without too much of a fuss. I walked up the stairs, not saying another word to Jessie, into my room and closed my door to get changed. Fully ready for bed I said goodnight to Jessie, turned out my lights and crawled under the soft duvet.
“Lucy! Lucy you little slut, come here and tell me what is on your mind.” It was jess, the messed up little selfish cow. I wasn’t someone to hate someone but Jess, Jess was someone who had stepped over the line, far to many times. “Jess! You want to know what’s on my mind really? Well here you go.” I had walked right back to her, I needed to scream but i knew if i blew my top she wouldn’t quite get what i was saying and simply laugh. “Ever since you walked into my life you have been nothing but trouble, your attitude to life is bad and you’re quite simply a little bitch. I’m so sick of your games Jess, right now the last thing I want is you in my life.” A teacher looked over in my direction, my voice was rising and I didn’t want to draw attention to us. I moved my face in closer to hers and spoke in a harsh tone that even threw me off a little. “You can take your little made up issues back to your fucked up family and your stoner boyfriend because I’m fucking done alright. Over this fucked up bulshit that you call life. Okay?” I breathed out. Jess’ face was shocked, her eyes quickly grew with fury, I insulted her family and low-life boyfriend and she was pissed. Her tiny nearly unhealthy frame stood up straight and took one step towards me, her fist came flying towards me, hitting my face hard, I wasn’t going to fight, cause suspension and so on, so I simply shoved jess and stormed away. “Over it, jess. So fucking over it!” I yelled back, passing a teacher who simply told me to watch my language, I headed back into the closest block of classrooms and took a minute to have a breather.
she made me so angry, she forced me to push away all my friends till I had no-one close to me; no close friends that I could trust. It was all Jess’ fault that this whole year had been so fucked up. I headed home to my dad’s picked up a bottle of alcohol, didn’t look at the label. I met up with some of my school friends and we all dunk, a lot. I was still so pissed from school I got up and walked away, I was past the point of tipsy, I threw the bottle down at the ground, screaming; why was this still getting to me Jess was no longer in my life, no longer a friend but I was still angry, I tried to keep on walking but feel on the broken bottle that I had just smashed. Every thing was a blur “Lucy! Lucy!” My friend ran up. I couldn’t feel a thing and then blacked out.
I awoke, Jessie was sitting next to me. whispering my name, trying to wake my up. “Jessie! I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you oh my gosh I’m so so sorry.” I whispered sitting up and turning on the lamp. “Lu, it’s fine I got up to go on the toilet and I heard you whispering rather angrily in your sleep, you hadn’t closed the door so I came in to see you in what looked like a lot of discomfort.” Jessie smiled. I knew I should’ve brung my sleeping pills with me, I knew it if this dream was back, this memory was back I knew the demons would be with it. “Lu babe?” Jessie asked, seeming totally worried. “hmm?” I wasn’t listening, I was scared. “I asked are you okay hun, what was that dream?” I shook my head, telling her that no, I’m not alright and also, not something I wanted to talk about. She pulled me into a hug, I wanted to keep hugging her because I felt safe I couldn’t though; I was in too much pain. I pulled back after a very short second and pulled down the duvet to see that I had small amounts of blood on my singlet. Oh no, Jessie will want to see and there will be more there than a few bleeding scratches. “Lucy? what happened?” I looked up at her and shook my head, I didn’t say a word just shook my head. “Luchia, babe. you can trust me alright, I promise.” She said looking at me, her hand moving towards my face I turned away, I was scared, I trusted Jessie as I knew she trusted me but I was scared. She took my face and gently made me face her, I kept my eyes shut but soon felt her other hand wipe at my cheek. I was crying and I didn’t even notice I opened my eyes and looked at Jessie, I could trust her. I was scared though I just looked at her, she pulled her hands away from my face and reached to the bottom of my top before making eye contact again. “Luchia, let me see.” Her voice a lot sterner, I had to trust her. I nodded, as Jessie pulled my singlet I winced at the pain of the dry blood peeling away from my skin. “Lu, how has this all happened?” I had to now tell her the full story.
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The exchange
Fanfiction16 year old Lucy is on an exchange trip from New Zealand and staying with 16 year old Jessica Cornish, she has had a shaky past will she let Jessie become a close friend will she let down her walls for anyone?
