Shawn Mendes Imagines

Try Pt. 2

  (Y/N POV)

  *6 Months later*

  "Ouch!"

   I jump as the oil from the frying pan shoots up sizzling my skin.

  I turn around and grab a rag patting my burnt skin.

Rocket, my puppy that I got 4 months ago lets out a squeaky bark ears up looking at the door.

  The doorbell rings as she pushes against her cage.

I turn off the stove, letting the chicken bask in the grease as I head to the door.

Who would be here at this hour?

Unlocking the door, I turn the handle opening it as the winter breeze pushes through the cracks.

  My head spins as I see the person in front of me.

  A crying Shawn wipes his eyes on the sleeves of his jacket as he hiccups.

  "Shawn?" I ask opening my door a bit more. Never have I seen him cry, ever.

  "Please let me in." He hiccups again.

  I don't answer him but proceed to open my door all the way as he steps in my apartment.

  He takes my hand right as I close the door, pulling me to the couch.

  "What are you doing here?" I question detaching my hand from his as we sit down.

  "I haven't seen you in 6 months. That's all I get?" He jokes trying to lift up a smile.

   "Well what did you expect me to say?" I retort, a little irritated with his sudden appearance.

  "How did you find out where I live anyway? Who told you?" I throw at him.

  "I miss you." He spits, hiccuping once again.

  I roll my eyes as I get up going to the kitchen.

  "Wait please!" He yells, making Rocket jump.

  "Lower your voice! You're scaring her! I'm not going anywhere, I'm just getting you a glass of water." I respond.

  I hand him the water as he mumbles a 'thank you' taking it and putting it on the coffee table in front of us.

"Drink it so you can stop the hiccups." I scold.

  He ignores me, turning his body towards mine.

  "Did you hear my last sentence?" He asks.

"I did." I answer, looking anywhere but him.

  "I miss you (Y/N). So much."

The tension build up in the air as I try to think of an answer to give him.

  "Are you not going to respond?" He disputes, scooting closer to me.

  I can feel the heat radiating off his breath.

  "I don't- I don't know how to respond." I stutter, feeling his stare on me.

  "Don't you miss me too (Y/N)? Because everyday without you was the worst. I need you." He spills, tears rolling down his flushed cheeks.

  "Why are you crying?" I ask, moving away from him.

  "Because I miss not being with you (Y/N)! Don't you get it?" He exclaims, heaving out a sigh as he runs his hands over his face multiple times.

  "Remember how you treated me Shawn? Don't you remember? I don't want to be with you if you act like that. I don't deserve that." I yell my voice cracks, getting weaker at the last sentence.

  "I know (Y/N)! And I'll never forgive myself for that! I didn't any of that! Nothing! I didn't know what I was thinking! I-I." He takes a pause looking away from me, then continuing on.

  "It just came out and I was so drunk and stressed and I don't, I don't know. I just know I miss you more than I can describe. I miss you being the first thing I see when I wake up, seeing you when I get home. Do you know how lonely the house is without you? I need you to come back. Please."

  "You cheated. You cheated when we were married Shawn. Do you know how much that hurt me? How long it took to get the thoughts of 'what did I do wrong' or 'I wasn't good enough' to get out of my head? Do you know how long it took me to stop crying over you? I don't think I can go through that again and risk feeling like shit when you cheat on me again." I pour, tears coming down from my eyes too. 

"I'm not gonna cheat! I'm not! That was a one time thing (Y/N)! Just, please trust me! I love you so much. I love you more than Romeo loved Juliet. I fucking miss you so much. I can't function without you. What will it take for you to believe me?" He shouts, getting up, pacing in front of me.

  "Did you see her again?" I ask.

"What?" He scoffs, stopping to look at me again.

I look him in eye, the first time in 6 months and ask him again.

"Did you see Lauren after what happened?"

"No?! Why would I want to be with someone else? You're the only one for me (Y/N). You're all I need. I gave you six months. I gave you space because I knew you needed it. Even though it hurt to go a day without seeing you. I'm still waiting for you. I'm still trying, and I'll keep trying."

I don't answer, which seems to be my only defense mechanism tonight as I let his words soak in.

Without thinking, I get up and throw my arms around him, hugging him like its the last day I'll live.

He starts to sob in my embrace making my heart swell.

"You're still technically my husband because we never filed for divorce." I mumble in his chest.

He lets out a deep sigh hugging me close to death.

"I've been waiting six months for this, don't ever put me through this again."

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UNEDITED

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