Shawn Mendes Imagines

Mistakes

(Y/N POV)

He was the one.

  But the broken pieces of my heart, sliced him too.

  And now he's gone and it's all my fault.

I shouldn't have let him get close, he was too good for me.

  Everyone knew it, and I did too. I was just too selfish to let him go.

He knew I was going through a rough time, yet he was still there for me.

But I took him for granted and I know that now.

  One mistake,

ruined everything.

He had my heart and the night I slept with another man was when I lost his.

  But now I have to live with the consequences, taking care of my beautiful baby boy.

  4 years old, Shawn's baby, not the other mans'.

  I made him take a saliva test and it came out negative.

  Griffin, my boy is the only thing I have left of Shawn.

  He keeps asking about his father, but I've never had the heart to tell him I messed up everything. 

  But I've sucked up my pride and now I'm parked in front of Shawn's home.

His car is parked out front, along wit another beautiful one beside it.

It might be his new partners'. Something stabs in my chest but I shake it off, I'm not here to rekindle what I had with Shawn, I'm here to finally let Griffin meet his dad.

The bright sun of a sunny summer day glares into the car.

  "Mommy? I need to pee." Griffin says as he squirms in his car seat.

  I sigh unbuckling him and getting out of the car, closing the door behind him.

I place him down on the floor and hold his hand in mine, crouching down to his eye level.

  "Ok sweetie, we're going to see someone very close to me and you, don't be scared if he starts yelling at me, ok hun?" I tell him, kissing his forehead.

  "I won't mommy, I love you." He smiles pulling me into a hug.

  I sigh again, getting up and walking towards the door. Hesitantly I ring the doorbell.

  My palms are sweaty, making Griffin's too.

  We wait a minute as I hear some shuffling behind the door and my heart pounds in my ears.

  I'm finally going to see Shawn after 4 years of waiting.

  The door swings open as a face I remember very clearly pops behind wooden barrier.

  Lauren Mcartney.

  The girl that caused all my problems, the girl that bullied me for half my life, until I met Shawn.

  The girl that stole everything from me.

And she's done it again.