10.when it gets hard dont be afraid💗

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by -mendesarmy

by -mendesarmy

It was Shawn.

Shawn: I'm calling from my manager's phone
Me: why are calling me? I said I didn't want to talk about it.
Shawn: being apart is hard enough , I don't want to have you being sad and I can't do anything because you won't tell me why. This situation is gonna ruin our relationship. Just talk to me I'm there.
Me: I'm sorry I can't.

I hung up. I know this wasn't a great idea but I didn't want to talk about it. My life seemed so complicated, it was just a mess. My parents wanted me to break up with my boyfriend, I was bullied at school , I had bad grades and I was getting a lot of hate from shawn's fan on social media. I turned my phone off , I didn't want to argue with Shawn. I came back home at eleven thirty. My mom left me a message on a table. "I hope you'll come back home not too late you have school tomorrow.. Se you at dinner tomorrow xx". I put it in the garbage and went to my room.

I finally went to bed and opened my phone. I had 103 new messages. Obviously it was Shawn. He was worried about me. I sent him this "I'm okay. I'm going to sleep goodnight.."

The next day, my sister woke me up by screaming
Hanna : SARA WHERE'S MY HAIRBRUSH!!
Me: I DON'T KNOW HANNA LEAVE ME ALONE!!

Well that's not what I call an happy morning. I checked my phone and had a message..

Shawn: hey princess.. I know you're not feeling okay and I know you don't want to talk about it, I understand but I think you shouldn't stop talking to me because of it.. I want to help you but you won't let me .. I know it's hard ..I know I'm not the boyfriend you deserve I'm not even there to give you a hug and tell you that I love you, I feel really bad about it. I'm thinking about you and I hope you'll be better soon.. I see you in 25 days ..😓❤️

I called him..

Shawn: hey..
Me: hey I wanted to talk to you..
Shawn: I miss you so much
Me: I miss you too..
Shawn: you don't have to tell me what's going on I just want to be sure you're okay
Me: I am. Don't worry about me.
Shawn: well I'm worried
Me: don't be. I have to go to school in thirty minutes so..
Shawn: ok well text me when you have time I really miss you and I love you, so much..
Me: I love you too .. Bye
Shawn: bye princess