Can he guess who she is?
You are somebody and I am the nobody. Here comes this cliche typed of a story once again. Loving someone who doesn’t know you even exist. Wait, in my case, he knows I exist, but he doesn’t know about this feeling… these feelings I have for him.
Every girls like you, don’t include me. Do you know why you shouldn’t? It’s because I don’t like you, I love you. Funny how I can say these words to you but I can’t to my parents. That’s how much I love you.
Just like Taylor Swift said, loving you is like changing my mind when I’m already flying from a free fall. Mahirap na mapigilan. Wait, let me rephrase it, hindi ko na mapipigilan. Ano bang klase ng droga ka at ganito na lang ako naadik sayo? Pero what am I to you? Nothing.
Ito yung tipo ng pag-ibig na isa lang ang nagmamahal. Yes, it hurts pero hurting is part of loving, right? This just proves I’m really into you. I can’t look to other guys thinking you might be angry or at least jealous. Pero sino nga ba ako? Wala lang eh. We’re not even friends to begin with. Sabi pa naman nila, doon magsisimula yun. Sa friendship. Pero look at us. Wait, is there us? I’m so helpless.
You can make me go gaga over your stupid jokes na naririnig ko. Kung kailangang pilitin kong tumawa for you, I will. Kung kailangang mag-skip ako ng classes ko para lang mapanuod kayo na nag-pra-practice ng basketball, gagawin ko. There’s this part of me that’s wondering if you notice me. Kahit isang beses lang.
But I was wrong. I know you never laid your eyes on me. And that’s a sad fact.
Pero tuloy pa rin. It’s not like if I stopped this madness, you’ll notice me and confess you like me too. Nangyayari lang yun sa mga storya sa wattpad. I’m talking about reality now. Alam kong hindi mo ko napansin kahit kailan.
Sure, pwede ko pang sabihin na you noticed me because I’m so weird. Ako yung tipong babae na kahit naglalakad ay may binabasang libro, right? You think so? I hope you nod. Masaya na ko thinking you thought of me once.
I continued following you wherever you are. Miski sa CR ng lalaki pero don’t get me wrong. Hindi kita sinisilipan. Nakakatawa dahil pwede na ata akong matawag na obsessed. Pero is it my fault to be in loved with you?
I tried liking the same stuff you like. I always listen to your favorite band thinking I might like them too. Yes, I liked them. But I can’t leave my favorite band. Second, I watch your favorite movie daily thinking I might actually get why that became your favorite movie. But I didn’t. I failed. I tried doing your favorite sport, but guess what? I broke my knee because of that.
Dahil sa kagustuhan kong mapansin mo, I tried playing basketball. Pwede naman yun sa girls diba? Pero not for me. My bones are weak. It has low density kaya madaling mabali. The outcome? You didn’t notice me, na-confine pa ko sa ospital.
Kahit nasa ospital ako, I tried reaching you. Mapa-facebook man, gumawa pa ako ng twitter para sayo. What else? I always visit your formspring account. Nakakausap kita dun pero you don’t know who am I.
For the first time in my life, I became lively even though I’m in a hospital. You made my life bloom. Gulat pa nga ang mga doktor why my bones get stronger and stronger every time we do an examination. My answer will always be at the back of my head and.. it’s you.
We became college. You transfered school. Wala akong magawa kundi subaybayan ka na lang sa internet. Finally, I have the guts to greet you on twitter. Hindi mo naman na siguro ako naalala by that time.
