Fear. Hate. Love

Together Again

~Together Again~

Zee's P.O.V:

Hay and Matt took off together leaving Jay and I alone. We continued to dawdle slowly for a while until we found a nice spot. Jay rolled out the plastic sheet while I placed the blanket on top of it and we took a seat. I lay down and stared up at the clear night sky.

I sat up and looked to Jay "We need to talk." I told him.

"Okay, what's up?"

"Right well." I paused I wasn't sure the best way to word it so I had to wing it. "It's about us, about where we are going, or rather not going."

"I see, no actually I don't follow."

"I told you I needed time and you gave that to me and for that I thank you. But you see the thing is I am ready to move forward now, but now you are going in the opposite direction and won't hear it as you think I still need time. Well I want to make it clear I don't need more time. I love you Jay and we wasted 15 years apart, I don't want to waste anymore time." Jay sat there looking at me not saying a word. "Say something." I added. Before I knew what was happening Jay's lips were crashing down on mine, in a deep passionate kiss.

"Are you sure this is what you want?"

"Never been so sure about anything." A smile grew from ear to ear before he kissed me again.

"I love you Zee."

"I love you Jay."

"Earth calling Zee?" I blinked a few times and saw Jay looking down at me.

"Huh? Sorry got wrapped up in my own thoughts there."

"So I see, you almost missed it." He pointed up to the shimmering, dancing lights above us.

"Oh wow, look how beautiful it is." I said a smile growing on my face. "It is more beautiful than I could have imagined."

"Isn't it?" I looked to Jay and was about to ask if we could talk but I couldn't get the words out. I simply smiled and went back to watching the lights.

We entered the cabin which had a roaring fire light. I shrugged out of my coat and hung it on the thick mahogany coat rack next to the door.

"Ah heat." I ran over to the fire and sat on the rug in front of it holding my cold hands out trying to get the feeling back in them.

A knock on the door sounded and Jay still being on his feet answered it. IT was one of the staff members offering us a hot chocolate. I hurried over and took a mug.

"Oh perfect, thanks." I made my way back to the fire and sipped on my chocolate. Jay took his and thanked the woman before joining me.

"So what do you want to do now?" Jay asked sipping on his chocolate.

"Uh I noticed they have a Christmas DVD collection over their, we can find one and watch it." I suggested.

"Yeah I guess." He replied but I got the feeling that wasn't what he wanted to do.

"I'm open to suggestions though." A smile grew on his face as he got to his feet walking over to his overnight bag and pulled out a bottle of JD.

"Oh Jay you beaut. I'll go find some glasses." I hurried into the kitchen and found some shot glasses in the cupboard. Jay poured the drinks while I scanned the DVDs "Why don't we combine my idea with yours?"

"How so?"

"A drinking game. Ah-Ha!! Perfect." I pulled out Elf."

"Okay what are the rules?"

"Okay the rules are simple. You take a shot every time buddy eats something he shouldn't, maple syrup appears on the screen, Buddy mentions the North pole, Walter gets mad a Buddy. Take 2 shots when Buddy calls himself a cotton headed ninny muggins, the real Santa appears, Jovie sings, and Peter Dinklage is on screen."

"Okay then, you will have to keep me on track as I won't remember all that."

"Just drink when I drink." With a nod from Jay I got the DVD set up and we got comfortable on the couch.

Well needless to say by the end of the movie the bottle of Jack was at least half gone and we were on our road to drunk town.

"That was fun. Do you want to do another movie?" Jay asked.

"Nah let's just talk."

"Talking it is." A silence then fell over us as I tried yet again thinking since I had liquid courage that I might be able to go through with it but I choked again. After a long while Jay broke the silence by asking. "So is there anything in particular you want to talk about?" I shook my head.

"Nope." I lied, why couldn't I bring myself to tell him?

"Okay then....." The silence fell upon us once again. It went on for the longest time and eventually I just couldn't take it anymore.

"I miss you." I blurted out

"Zee! What you talking about, i'm right here." Jay chuckled.

"I know. I mean I miss you." I looked to him as if I expected him to get my meaning. "Romantically I miss you, I hate being apart." I swear I saw the penny drop. "Please don't tell me I need more time. I appreciate you wanting to give me that time I asked for and you did, but i've had enough time. I know what I want now."

"What do you want?"

"You, I want us back. We've wasted 15 years and I don't want to waste another minute longer."

"Zee are you sure you're not just drunk?"

"Damn it Jay, stop that. Yes i'm tipsy but I do know what i'm saying."

"Okay, okay I just want you to be sure and not regret anything when you're sober."

"I won't i've been trying to tell you for days but you keep pushing me away saying I need more time. I don't.... I love you Jay and I want to be with you.... So what do you say?"

"I love you too Zee." Jay placed the bottle on the table and leaned into me taking my glass from my hand placing it on the table too, he then came back and kissed me passionately. My heart swelled with happiness. I had missed his touch, his kiss for too long. I honestly felt like I was home again.