Fear. Hate. Love

Delayed

~Delayed~

Zee's P.O.V:

"Ugh this stupid fucking thing." I cussed as i jump up and down on my suitcase willing it to close enough for me to get it zipped up.

"Need a hand?" I looked up to see a very amused Jay standing in my doorway.

"Can you help me Zip this stupid thing up?"

"Why don't you try taking less things? I mean no doubt you don't need half the things in there."

"Most of it is my gifts for everyone."

"Why don't you put them in a separate suitcase?"

"Because i don't want them damaged."

"They won't be, here want to put them in with mine, there is still some room?" I nodded and done just that and i managed to get my suitcase zipped.

"Thanks. So you all set?"

"Yup, I unlike you didn't wait til last minute."

"Ha ha." I threw the suitcase on the ground with a thud.

"Seriously we're going away for a week."

"And a girl need options." Jay shook his head. "I'm so excited." I grinned. "I'm really glad you are coming.... Matt too of course."

"You are?"

"Yeah it's been nice having you around and we've not spent a christmas together in 15 years."

"I'm glad to hear you say that."

"I really do miss you Jay."

"I'm right here silly."

"No i mean-"

"I know what you meant. I Miss you too, more than you will ever know." He caressed my cheek and his touch made my heart swell. "I want you back in my arms so bad... But don't worry i know you need time," Without a second thought my lips went crashing down on his. To my surprise Jay stopped me pulling away. "Zee we can't. Believe me it's taking a lot for me to say this, but we can't go rushing into this, you said it yourself you're confused and need time to sort through your emotions. We need to keep this strictly friends, for now until you are completely sure you know what you want."

I nodded lowering my head. "You're right, I'm sorry. I guess i just keep getting caught up in my old feelings for you." I sigh, I do need to take time and figure out how i feel about you now. So strictly friends." I gave a weak smile.

"Good, I'm not going anywhere okay, take your time. For now though, get some shut eye we have a long day tomorrow. Night Zee,"

"Night Jay." HE exited the room leaving me alone with my thoughts, my crazy mixed up confused as hell thoughts.

Needless to say my thoughts kept me up half the night and it seems like i just got off to sleep when Hay came in and woke me up. I was exhausted. On the plus side i guess that means i could sleep the journey away. I dragged my ass into the shower and slipped into a pair of leggings and a Rob Zombie tee and a pair of cons. I just shoved my hair into a messy bun and i was ready. No makeup, nothing i didn't see the point.

We piled into the cab with all our luggage stuffed in the back and we were off to Heathrow.

"What's up Grump Gills?" Hay asked.

"Just tired, i didn't sleep well last night."

"How come?"

"I don't know just my brain over thinking things."

"Things like?" She asked I glanced to Jay, Hay followed my glance and understood and said no more.

When we arrived at Heathrow, we arrived to discover their had been a security breach and all flights were cancelled but we would be able to catch our flights as scheduled from Gatwick the next day.

"Should we go home and leave early in the morning, or make the journey today grab a hotel and not have such a mad rush in the morning?" Hay asked,

"Well to get to Gatwick is going to cost £50 alone let alone a hotel, but it would be easier than trying to rush around in the morning," Matt replied.

"I vote we get there today." I said with a yawn.

"Yeah me too." Hay agreed.

"Right then i'll call a cab.

An hour later we arrived at the premiere inn right next to the airport and thankfully they had room, unfortunately they only had two doubles.

"Girls and guys?" Hay asked.

"Yeah yes that might be best." I said trying to avoid spending time alone with Jay, i couldn't trust myself.

"You guys alright with Sharing?"

"Won't be the first and i am sure it won't be the last." Jay said as we made our way up to the rooms.

"What are we going to do for the day?"

I am going to sleep. Whatever you decide i will join in later." I announced and retreated to the room.

Hay's P.O.V:

Zee shut the door behind her.

"Is she okay?" Matt asked.

"Yeah just tired." I reassured him.

"Okay so what's today's plan?"

"Well we missed breakfast so i'm hungry. food then decide?" I suggested. Everyone agreed so we placed our things in our room and headed out to find a food joint. We headed to a place in the terminal called cafe rouge which was a french bistro. We had a light lunch i had a chicken salad which was nice but nothing to shout about about the guys had a steak subway with a side salad. We headed back soon after to see if Zee was up and plan the day,

She wasn't and i figured we'd leave her to sleep a bit longer so we simply headed to a amusement arcade we spotted on the way in the cab. I left a note for Zee telling her where she could find us when she woke.

Once at the arcade Jay challenged Matt to a race game and said i could race the winner. This would be fun. Well Jay got his ass whooped. He spent more times crashing into the side than he did on the race track,

"We meet again." Matt said.

"Oh that reminds me, you are supposed to be our slaves. I think you should start now by getting me a drink Jay while I kick Matt's butt at this game." I grinned from ear to ear. He grumbled but done as i asked while I raced Matt and won.

We went on like this for a while with a few different games. Then about an hour later Zee joined us and we paired up boys versus girls until we were bored and we headed back to the hotel but not before grabbing munch and we had a movie marathon til dinner then went back to the movie marathon until bedtime,