Fear. Hate. Love

Can't Go On Tour Without Nemo

~Can't Go On Tour Without Nemo~

I was searching my room frantically tossing things over my shoulder as I went when Hay came in.
"What in gods name are you doing woman?" She asked.
"I can't find my finding Nemo DVD. I can't go on tour without Nemo" A chuckle escaped her lips and she cleared her throat. I glanced up to see she had it in her hands.
"Oh good thank you, you are an angel."
"Saw it sitting on the coffee table and figured you wouldn't want to go eight months without it. You got your Nemo mascot?"
"I do. Have you got your Simba?"
"Of course, now hurry we need to be leaving in the next ten minutes."
"About done." I informed her slipping my Nemo DVD in my handbag zipping it up. I collected the few piles of clothing I had laid on my bed and placed them in my suitcase before zipping it up. I then grabbed my phone off charge placing it along with the charger and my iPod in my carry on bag. I made sure all my switches were off and grabbed my laptop before declaring I was set.

When we arrived at bus depot I saw the bullet guys all gathered outside one of the two buses. Along the side of the bus it read bullet for my valentine then along the side of ours it read My heart, Your hands. I had to admit it was such a surreal feeling t see our name up there plastered all over the side of the wall. It made the whole thing feel very real and I felt it finally sink in and my stomach done flips and fill with butterflies at the same time.
"OMG! This is really happening. Were about to embark on our very first world tour." Bolt grinned as Owen pulled up and killed the engine.
"Only way this could be better is if we were the headlines." I added.
"One day soon sweet Zee." Owen flashed a smile in the rear-view mirror before we all piled out. We made our way to Kevin who was standing talking to the bullet guys.
"Guys are you excited?" Kev asked as we approached.
"Excited isn't the word Kev my man," Bolt answered scanning the bus. "This is amazing."
"Just wait until we're a few month in on the tour, you might not be saying that." Padge laughed. I caught Jay watching me, but I pretended not to notice and walked onto our bus to check it out.

I stepped in and was standing in the small living room area which had two black leather couches on either side with a few cushions scattered. A large flat screen tv hung in the corner with an x-box and ps3 underneath. Right next to that on the right side was a kitchen area which had a microwave a kettle and a small fridge and a sink area with small cupboard area above. On the left side was a dining table that could sit four and above that was more storage space. The floor was black tiled and had a few runners along the length of the bus and the windows had blinds on them. Then there were doors leading to the bathroom and bunk area. There were four bunks two on each side one top one bottom. The top one had a space above it for our belongings and the bottom had a space under it for our belongings. And they had a small black curtain we could draw for privacy. All in all looked pretty comfy. I wasn't expecting our first tour bus to be quite so luxurious. I made my way back outside to grab my things from the car when I bumped into Matt.
"Hey Zee." I flashed him a smile.
"Hey,' I replied dryly. Matt looked to me confused.
"Are you mad at me?"
"Why would I be mad at you? It's not like you just forgot about me too." I spat, Sure Jay broke my heart but I was pissed at them all. I was their best friend and as soon as they got a taste for fame little old me was forgotten.
"Zee we didn't forget about you."
"Could have fooled me." I stepped past him heading to the car. Matt followed.
"We were very busy," He let out a sigh. "Okay I admit we should have tried harder but come on Zee by the time we got home you had left,"
"Oh and of course asking my mum for my contact details never crossed your mind. No you were no longer interested. You know I'm not sure what hurt me more. Jay or the rest of you."
"Zee please."
"No Matt you hurt me and maybe one day I can get past that, but that day isn't today. I'm sorry." I told him grabbing my luggage and headed back to claim my bunk. This time Matt didn't follow. I fought hard not to let the tears fall that stung at my eyes. I would need to get used to seeing them without wanting to break down. It wasn't going to be easy though.

Hayden's POV:
Zee headed into the tour bus and I saw Jay watch after her. My heart bled for Zee this can't have been easy for her. She told me what happened between them and although I don't know they guy I kind of hate him for what he done to her. I was trying not to get personal though. That was many years ago and none of my business, but I felt the right to stand by my best friend so I would talk be civil but I was in no way making any special effort to get to know him. As much as I am a fan of the band.
"Is she okay?" Jay asked pointing toward Zee. I nodded
"yeah why wouldn't she be?" I asked as nicely as I could.
"I mean about, us, you know being on the road with us?" He added.
"I don't suppose it's easy but she has three friends who will help her through it.
"Back in a sec." Matt said and headed off toward our bus. Zee came out just as he was about to enter and they were exchanging a few words. She didn't look happy.
"She seems like she has a good life. Is she happy?"
I turned my attention back to him. "She is, but listen I don't mean to be rude but I don't think we should be talking about her to you, it's a bit late for your concerns." I turned my attention back to Zee who was now stood at the car with Matt looking even less happy than before. She then stormed off toward the bus with her bags in hand.
"Look i-" Jay started but I waved him off and hurried off to see what was up with Zee. I found her sitting on the couch with her bags at her feet looking like she was battling with herself not to cry.
"Babe., you okay?" She looked up startled as if she hadn't heard me enter the bus. She feigned a smile.
"I'm okay, it's harder than I thought but I'll be fine."
"What did Matt say?"
"It doesn't matter." She wiped at her eyes. I nodded I wouldn't push her. "When are we hitting the road?"
"I'll go find out" I told her turning on my heels and exiting the bus. I found everyone had disappeared, But when I heard Owens distinct laugh float out of the bullet bus I hurried over stepping inside to see it looked pretty much like ours, except they had some personal touches to theirs. Like a few awards they have won littered the side boards a few posters hung on the walls and a few other knickknacks.
"Kev, when are we hitting the road?" I asked, everyone turned to face me.
"Why is Zetta okay?"
"Yeah she's fine, just getting herself settled in. We were just curious is all,"
"Well it won't be long now. Just waiting for a few details." With a nod I about turned and relayed the info to Zee.
As Kevin said it wasn't long until we were hitting the road so we gathered our belongings out the car and got ourselves settled we had a two hour journey to London for our first venue. I grabbed Zee's Nemo DVD and popped it on, to my surprise the guys didn't utter a word, but I think they knew as well as I did this would cheer Zee up and she really needed that right now.c