Fear. Hate. Love

The Next Morning

~The Next Morning~

Zee's P.O.V:

The sound of someone knocking, or should I say pounding on the door startled me awake. I tried to leap out of bed to see who was making all that racket and for what reason. But as I done so I realized there was a strong arm wrapped tightly around my waist. I glanced around to find the arm belonged to Jay...... Jay wait,what?

::FLASHBACK::

After a quick make up check I exited the ladies and hurry back to the dance floor when I realize Living dead girl was playing. I was shaking what my mama gave me when someone came up behind me. I turn to see Jay with a cheeky grin. What the hell I thought, it's only a dance right?

Once the song was over without a word I stepped outside for some air, I was getting a little over heated. Once outside I grabbed my phone and tweeted a selfie and captioned it taking a breather from @MHYH_Hay amazing birthday party. Tweet her a happy birthday, I'm sure she'll love it.

And send.

"Taking selfies without me?" I turned to see Jay walking toward me. I beckoned him over and wrapped my arm around his neck pulling him close to me as I took another photo telling Jay to make a funny face. Laughing Jay turned to me and as our eyes locked I suddenly lost all self control. I pulled him in as my lips came crashing down on his. He didn't need telling twice. His arms wrapped around my waist lifting me as my legs then wrap around his waist. He spun on his heels my phone slipping from my hand, crashing to the ground as he pinned me to the wall our lips remained connected the entire time.

Finally needing air I pull away from the kiss and through pants of excitement I say . "You...me... hotel...now." I didn't need to tell him twice. He put me back on my feet and I swiped up my phone as we ran toward a cab stance that was on the next block.

Back at the hotel, the making out continued in the elevator again Jay lifted me pinning me to the wall but it was in fact the doors so when we reached our floor the doors opened and we tumbled out. Laughing our asses off Jay pulled me to my feet and quickly led me to his room. As he slid the keycard in the lock I pushing him through the door shutting it behind me with my foot as I push him to the bed where I proceeded to straddle him and pull my dress up over my head leaving me in nothing but my underwear.

TW: MATURE CONTENT::::

"Oh god, you have no idea how much I have missed this." Jay groaned as he cupped my breasts.

"Not half as much as I've missed this." I said rubbing his groin making him moan with pleasure. I then proceeded to undo his belt and slip his trousers off leaving him only in his boxers. Jay sat up and pressed my body to his as he nibbled on my bra teasingly before his hands slid up my back and unhooked each hook slowly. I tip my head back in pleasure as his touch sends jolts of electric energy through every inch of my body.

"I want you so bad." Jay groaned as he slipped my bra off throwing it away as he started to lick and nip at my bare nipples.

"I'm here, I'm yours." I replied as Jay flipped me over so he was now on top and in control.. He leaned down kissing me passionately biting on my lower lip. I let out a soft moan as his simple touch filled my body with even more electric energy. "Take me." I whispered. Jay did not hesitate to slip out of his boxers and slip my panties to the side . He then slowly at first entered me and I was lost in ecstasy.

We both reached our peaks together before Jay flopped next to me. Both fighting to catch our breath. I closed my eyes for one simple moment.....

::FLASHBACK END::

"Oh god, oh god, oh god." I ran my hand over my face. The pounding continued.

"Jay dude wake the fuck up man."It was Padge. Shit. I managed to break free of Jay's grasp. I climbed out of bed gathering and putting on my various pieces of clothing as I found them. By that point I thought Padge had given up so I took the opportunity to sneak back to my room. I grabbed my purse and rummaged for my key card then exited Jays room.

"Walk of shame." I turn to see Padge standing in his doorway looking highly amused.

"Don't say a word Padge." I warned. "You saw nothing."

"Maybe he didn't but I did." I turned to see Hay standing in her doorway with a raised brow.

"Oh no," I cursed under my breath."Can we do this later?" She nodded and I made my escape to my room for a shower.

Showered and dressed I head to Hay's room but she was gone, I figured she would be down at breakfast, I headed that way. When I arrived I was the last to. And I could tell by the way everyone was looking at me they all knew.

"Dirty little stop out." Moose said through a fake cough.

"Grow up." I retorted with a slap on the shoulder. "So I can guess what everyone's been talking about?"

"No not really.... okay a little."Matt admitted.

"Well let me set this straight right now, it's between Jay and I so you all need to keep your noses out of it." I said pointing to everyone but Jay. And with that I got up and walked away.

"Hey Zee come back." Hay called but I simply flipped the bird and headed to the bus. I needed sometime.

I don't really know why I got so defensive back there. I guess I was mad at myself. I said I wanted to take it slow but I end up sleeping with him. What did this mean? What did he think it meant? Was I ready for anything more than friendship?Was I leading him on by sleeping with him? I had so many questions swirling around in my head and not a single answer for any of them and I guess I wouldn't until I spoke to Jay about it, but the problem was I was scared to. I was scared to look at him and have to admit that I felt something last night. Last night was amazing and it reignited my love for him more than ever and I wasn't sure I could ignore that. I let out a groan of frustration.

"Knock knock, is it safe to come in?" It was Hay I nodded and she perched herself next to me.

"Hay, I'm sorry for my behaviour back there."

"Don't worry about it, I know it wasn't aimed directly at me. They had no right to tease you like that, you are right it is simply between you and Jay no one else, but I do want you to know I'm here if you want to talk. I know you and I know you'll be feeling all sorts of confused right now, am I right?" I only nodded.

We sat in silence a long moment before I spoke up.

"I'm still 100% madly in love with him Hay, last night only confirmed what I was trying to hide. I'm scared of that fact though, I'm scared because I don't want to get hurt again. I'm scared because I don't want to lose him again."

"I really don't have any answers for you babe, all I can say is sit down with Jay and talk it out. Like really talk it out. It might be hard but you need to." I nodded. She was right.

"Thanks Hay. So uh did you enjoy your birthday?"

"I did thank you so much. After you left the guys sang the song they wrote for me."

"Aww I'm sorry I missed it. But I'm glad you liked it."

"Have to say best birthday ever. On tour with my best friends, that includes the bullet boys, partying with A7X and lacuna coil, what more could a girl ask for?" "Oh and thanks to you my twitter feed blew up, I'm still getting birthday messages."

"Sorry." I grinned as innocently as I could. "Can we have a girl day? I feel we've not had a girl day in ages."

"Sure a girl day sounds fun. Let's go tell the guys, but tonight you talk to Jay right?"

"Promise." She pulled me to my feet and we went to tell the guys we were off on a girl day out.