The Comeback

Chapter 27 - Communication

Chapter 27 - Communication 

I try to remember my dreams, this time I know I’m not blocking them and when I went to sleep I had hopes that I would dream of Jake and have, well, a conversation with him; some sort of communication in hopes to make all this work. Nevertheless, nothing happened. When I wake up all I remember is seeing a white space, empty, completely empty and Louis. Yes, Emily’s brother. I saw him like I saw him the first time, all dressed in white but he wasn’t talking to Jake, he was standing there, watching something I couldn’t see. I could only see Louis’ face and all I saw was despair and worry. Still now I wonder what he was watching… or maybe he was thinking of his sister.

That is really weird, isn’t it? That I can see Louis as this being that talks to Jake, telling him he has to go. It’s clear Louis died before I was born, so how does he come into the picture?

You think you understand life, you think you know how things work but that’s a lie. You don’t really understand anything at all. You live, you go through the motion. What’s after, what was before, what will happen… all that is unknown for all of us. There are so many greater things in life, so many things way beyond our understanding and I don’t think we are even meant to understand them. Here I am, trying to figure out what’s happening but it’s so much that I can’t even begin to fully grasp the magnitude of the events.

As I didn’t dream of Jake and couldn’t communicate with him, I take a shower to clear my mind and try to relax a bit. The last few days have been so hectic, trying to understand so many things that I’m not supposed to understand. I’m beginning to think that I’ll never really understand why me, why I’m the one experiencing this. I can only try my best to understand some of what is happening.

Zayn is not around, I don’t know where he is but I guess he’ll come back later. Maybe he went running or something. Sometimes he does that when he’s really stressed and I reckon this whole situation is really stressful.

I don’t have plans for today, besides maybe studying a bit but after the coma the professors are stillvery considerate with me. Plus, it’s Saturday, the weekend is just starting. Maybe I could try talking to Jake. I’m not sure how this works, he always just bursts into the situation, talking when I haven’t even asked him for his opinion. He just speaks, out of the blue. If I call him, will he answer?

“Jake?” I say in a whisper. I guess I have to try. “I know you’re in there.” I cringe because I don’t even want to know how crazy I sound for doing this, and how creepy this is. “We need to talk.”

But nothing happens. I don’t know if I was expecting him to say ‘hey mate! You’re finally talking to me’ or something along the line, but I wasn’t expecting complete silence.

“Jake, c’mon. Don’t be shy now!” I try a bit louder but still, nothing. “Louis?” I try but I don’t think he will answer… and he doesn’t.

I try for a bit longer, I even close my eyes and concentrate, trying to reach but nothing happens. How ironic. The first time I actually want to hear him and talk to him, he decides to ignore me or hide. Or maybe something happened yesterday with Emily, when she made him talk and scream. She said something about Jake being in danger, that he was ‘dying’, but I don’t really get that. Could it be that going to Emily only made things more complicated?

And here we go again… with a headache.

I shake my head and give up for now. Maybe going outside will help me… or maybe seeing Cassidy will do. Normally, Jake’s voice is louder when I’m talking about her and it’s obvious she has to do with why he’s still here, and why he showed me all those memories. Maybe if I’m near her he’ll come to talk to me.