The Comeback

Chapter 34 - My Feelings

Chapter 34 - My Feelings

Ah, screw Jake. Whatever I feel can’t be only Jake’s doing, and even if when he leaves my feelings are not the same, I’m sure it’ll be a matter of time before I fully fall in love with her because that’s the only way. She is… she’s just so special and she makes me a better person. She’s the most beautiful soul I’ve met and I’d be crazy if I didn’t fall in love with her.

I know Jake thinks I don’t even fell a bit in love with Cassie, but that’s bullshit. He’s just being selfish and he doesn’t want me to love her because he’s jealous. He’s sabotaged my dates before and this is just him doing the same, playing with my mind.

The only way to really know whether I also love Cassie or not is by spending time with her, being conscious of every difference. However, I’m pretty sure I like her, maybe not as much as I thought, but I do.

“I’ll be right back,” I tell Zayn and leave him behind as I walk towards Cassie. I don’t know if she’s busy or anything, I just know we have to talk. Plus, Jake won’t leave me unless he’s sure Cassie is all right so I better make sure to help her.

Talking about the devil, Jake’s been awfully quiet.

I was just letting you rant in your mind, he finally speaks and I roll my eyes, not stopping. And just for the record, I think you’re an idiot.

“Shut up,” I mumble deciding to ignore him. I don’t care if he thinks I’m not good enough for Cassie or that he’s the only one who can love her. Contrary to what he may believe, I actually think anyone could love Cassie. She’s just amazing in a way only she can be.

I don’t stop until I’m close enough that if I call her name, she’ll hear me. And that’s what I do. “Cassie,” I say out loud and she stops on her spot, like she’s just frozen. “Cassie!” I call once again and she turns around, slowly.

Her eyes meet mine but she doesn’t smile like she normally would, instead she frowns and looks tense, like she dreads the moment I’ll stop in front of her because I don’t stop walking until we’re face to face, not even when I notice how intimidating Nessa looks next to her, ready to jump and cut my head off.

“Liam,” Cassie greets in the coldest voice I’ve ever heard her use. It even freezes my heart because her eyes are also cold. There’s no vestige of the warmth I used to see before, of that kindness that she would always share.

The worst part is that I know it’s my fault.

“Hi,” I start, feeling nervous. I didn’t really think when I left Zayn and came after Cassie, I only knew I had to talk to her. “I was um… thinking that maybe we could, you know, talk. Things were a bit… uh, left unresolved the other day.”

Cassie shakes her head and I see sadness in her eyes, but I mostly see hurt and I cringe because it’s my fault, and Jake’s. He made me tell her all those things that hurt her so much.

“I was pretty clear to me, Liam. You don’t have to explain anything further. I get it, really,” she speaks and I take a glance at Nessa. She hasn’t said anything but she looks murderous. Quite scary. Yet I still plead her with my eyes to leave Cassie and I alone. She doesn’t seem fond of that idea.

“Cassie, please,” I say and look at Nessa one more time. She only rolls her eyes and leaves us to speak, so I take a step closer to the brunette in front of me, but she steps back and that hurts. “Cassie, I know that I said things that day and you must understand that all this is really confusing. No one really knows why or how this is possible, we’re just trying to understand along the way.”