Forbidden Love

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Few weeks have passed since Alex and I hang out together. I got back to my usual routine.

Alex and Teresa as usual, are spending their free time together.

Seeing them together hurts so much. That's why I try my very best to avoid spending time with them. I use my work as an excuse. I worked extra shifts at the Phoenix hospital so that I won't be alone with my thoughts. I am always tired that's why I always fall asleep easily.

Today, I finished my shift. I am so tired again. Then, my phone rang suddenly.

Alex is calling me!!!!!! I was so surprised. It's been a few weeks since he last called me and hung out together with me.

I got so excited.

"Damn, Ken, you need to calm down. Maybe it's about Teresa again. " I told myself.

I answered his call.

"Hi."I greeted him.

"Hey, wanna party?" Alex asked.

I was so delighted by his invite. BUT...

"Ken, restrain yourself!! You need to avoid him!!!!!!! You'll just get hurt again!" I told myself.

"Sorry, Alex I'm kinda busy with work." I lied.

"Ok, dude, sorry to bother you." I can clearly hear the disappointment in his voice.

"What about Teresa?Did you ask her" I asked.

"Teresa is not in the country right now, she will be back in two weeks. She needs to take care of some business there." He said. This time, sadness in his my voice is what I hear.

I almost said yes to him, but I can't. I need to distance myself. I would really love to be with him but I need to restrain myself. For all our sakes. I don't want to ruin our friendship.

"I'm really sorry dude, but I can't hang out with you." I lied.

"Ok."And he hung up.

It left a bitter taste in my mouth. I made the one I love sad. I hate myself.

"Damn!!! Why don't you just confess already?!?"I asked myself.

I'm really a coward. I knew the answer but I can't bear the thought of being estranged with him and not even be his friend anymore.

Few days has passed and I continued avoiding him. Teresa is still overseas. Alex seems to be busy with work too and spends his free time on his own. He patiently waits for Teresa's return.

I got back from work as usual and arrived at the condominium. Although I arrived and saw that Alex car is parked. Usually, Alex is not home during this time.I'm sure of it because I have memorized the time when he was home so that I can avoid him.

"This is unexpected." I said to myself and went inside the condominium.

I went to the living room and found it empty. I thought he was watching television but he was not there.

"This is really strange. Where is he?"I wondered

I went and searched the dining area, the kitchen and he was nowhere to be found.

Then, it crossed my mind, maybe he is resting in his room. I then walked towards his room and knocked at his door.

"Alex, are you in there?" I asked.

And waited for his response.

And there was no response at all.

I decided to enter his room. He is there laying in his bed. It felt like a long time since I last saw him.