Few weeks passed and I started hanging out with Alex. I tried my best to act normal around him. I tried to ignore the pain whenever he is with Teresa.
Then we went and have guys'night out. We drank at the bar again.
"Ken, thanks for helping me prepare the surprise dinner for her."He said.
"No problem." I replied
All he talks about is Teresa whenever we hang out.
I know he can't help it but, I just can't listen to him. I don't know but I feel disinterested.
I just always replied "ok", "yeah", "sure". And he doesn't even notice. He is really dense. He is like in his own world. So in love with Teresa.
These always happen whenever we hang out. Till he got wasted again. He fell asleep again.
I saw his face and my heart beats fast again. Badump.
I start doubting myself. My gender identity and sexual orientation.
Am I gay? Is this the reason why I have never fallen in love with a woman before?
Is this because I can only fall in love with men?
Damn it all! I am gonna go crazy!
I realized that I am in love with Alex all along!!!
The pain I felt in my chest, whenever I saw him with Teresa is jealousy! When I saw them kiss, my hurt aches like I am stabbed with a knife.
I then carried him and drove to the condominium. After arriving, I went and supported him and gently laid him in his bed. I then exited his room. And then I closed the door in his room.
I don't want to admit it. I am trying to kill these feelings. Damn these feelings!
I'm in love with Alex all this time!!!!! I tried to deny this feeling. But I can't avoid this feeling forever.
I tried my best to avoid the obvious, but now I don't care if I'm gay or straight.
The important thing is I've realized that I am in love with Alex.
I love him.
"I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not 'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here"
How could something so wrong, feels so right all along?
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Forbidden Love
RomansaHandsome, talented, intelligent, and wealthy. Ken have it all. Although, Ken is just a kind of man who does not think much about love. He is focused on his work as a surgeon. His life will change drastically after meeting a certain person at a bar...
