Forbidden Love

Risk

 I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,  forget about these things and the memories I never can escape. Cause I'm not fine at all. No, I'm really not fine at all. Tell me this is just a dream. 'Cause I'm really not fine at all.

I screwed up real bad.

Time passed and I stayed at the bar, drowning myself in alcohol. When the bartender approached me.

"Sir, we need you to leave. It's closing time." He said

"O...kay." I stuttered.
And I grabbed a chair and made myself stand. I struggled walking. I imagined I looked like a zombie walking in a zigzag pattern. I almost fell so many times. I can hardly stand up.
And finally, after seems like forever, I am out the bar. I got my keys inside my pocket. And went inside my car.

I don't want to go back to the condominium. Alex might be there or maybe she is with Teresa, but I cannot risk the chance of her being at the condominium. I don't wanna go back to the condominium where Alex might be. I cannot face her after what I have done. I tried kissing her! After promising to Teresa that I will contain my feelings for her and be with her under the premise of friends. I am so ashamed of myself. I hate myself. Damn you, Ken!!!

I heard a car honking so loud. What the fuck!!! Why is it so noisy?!? I woke up because of that.
Damn! My head hurts!!! Hangover sucks!!!! I touched my head.
I realized that I fell asleep in my car. It's already morning. I looked at my watch and saw that it is already 10 am!!! Oh no! I will be late from work! I gotta work at 10:30!!!
I immediately started and car and drove to the condominium. I need to pull myself together. I hope Alex is not there.

A few minutes have passed and I arrived at the condominium. I parked my car and ran towards the entrance. 

My heart is beating so fast. 

I am so nervous.

 I hope Alex is not here anymore. I am still not ready to face her after what happened last night. 

I opened the door but it's locked.

 Whew! Alex is not home!!! I felt relieved ad looked at the time.

 Oh damn! I need to hurry or else I will be late for work!! 

I hurriedly opened the door with a spare key. I ran towards my room and took off my clothes. I went inside and took a quick shower.

 I looked at myself in the mirror and saw my busted lip. Damn! I look horrible!!! I touched my lips and I winced in pain. I really deserved this. This is a wake-up call. I washed my face And got a towel and dried myself. 

I then put on my clothes for work. But I need an ice pack first to minimize the swelling of my lips. I went to the kitchen and opened the fridge and made an ice pack. Good thing, we are both doctors. I have my first aid tools with me always. I put ice to numb the pain and lessen the swelling. 

After 5 minutes, I went outside the condominium. I hope my lips are less swollen and less noticeable now. I went and locked the condominium door and got inside my car. 

Then I drove towards the hospital as fast as I can.

Whew! I arrived 1 minute late!
I approached the nurse.

"Good morning..."
I stopped from speaking because of the sharp pain in my lips.
Damn, this hurts.
"Do we have patients waiting?" I continued, ignoring the pain in my lips.

The nurse looked at me and gasped.
"Doctor, what happened to your lips?"
She asked.

"Nevermind this. I already applied the necessary treatment. Just answer me please." I said disregarding the pain again. It burns! It hurts so much when speaking.