Saving Sanity: My Chemical Romance Fanfic

Chapter 26

Sanity’s POV

I woke up to loud banging noise. I sat up in my bed and looked around. How did i get here? Last thing i remembered was me being at school. I was confused. Slowly, my memory was coming back to me. I hear more banging and stood up off my bed. What was that? I walked outside my bed room and made my way to the kitchen. The living room was empty so i kept walking. When i made it to the kitchen what i saw surprised me. I saw Lyn-z moving around the kitchen, getting pots and pans out and i saw Gerard standing near her drinking yet another cup of coffee. 

"Gerard? What are you doing here?"

Gerard jumped at my voice. 

"Sanity, you're awake" he smiled at me. 

"What are you doing here?" I questioned again. 

"Frank and i came here to look for you."

"Frank?" I gulped. Frank was here? "Where is he?" i asked panically.

"Behind you, on the couch." Lyn-z answered, I turned around and saw a figure of Frank sleeping on the couch. Without giving so much as warning i took off running to my room. I could hear Gerards and Lyn-zs protests but i kept running. I ran all the way to my   bedroom and slammed my dor shut, locking it. It wasnt long before i could hear footsteps and knocking on my bedroom door. I chose to ignore it. 

“Sanity”, I heard Gerard’s voice sigh, “Unlock the door.”

I got off my bed and walked towards my sticker covered door. “No.” Was all I said. It’s not like I didn’t want to talk to him, I haven’t seen him in a while. It’s the subject he wanted to discuss I wanted to avoid. I knew I was being a coward and that I wouldn’t be able to avoid the subject forever but I was going to avoid discussing it as long as possible.

“Why not?”

I paused before answering his question. Why not? Why couldn’t I just open the door and let him in? Why couldn’t I just ignore what she said the other day? Why couldn’t I just be normal? But most importantly, why couldn’t I just face Frank. The answer was, I was scared.

 I sighed and with a click unlocked the door and took a step back. I turned around and sat on my messy, sheet tangled, bed. I watched as Gerard wasted no time in entering my bedroom. Before he shut the door I could see Frank peering around the corner. This time I got a better look at him. He looked almost exactly the same only this time he had worry lines temporarily etched in his flawless face. We made eye contact just as Gerard shut and locked my door. We both looked around awardly, trying to find the right words to say.

“So,” I began, “How have you been?”

“Good, I’ve just been worrying about you….we all have. We’ve missed you so much. “

“I missed you guys too” Most people would have automatically said that without actual truth behind those words. I wasn’t most people.  I actually meant what I said, I really did miss all of them, in the short time that I’ve known them, they’ve become my family.

“Including Frank?” he questioned carefully.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I waited a few minutes before finally answering his dangerous question. “Yes” I whispered.

Gerard walked over and sat next to me on the bed. “You know, he’s in the other room, you can easily talk to him.”

“No.” I replied quickly, opening my eyes. “I can’t.”

“Why not?”

“I just can’t” I snapped. Why couldn’t he just leave me alone. Why can’t he just accept the fact that I could never face Frank again. Not after what I did to him.  He probably hates me, not that I’d blame him, I’d hate me too.