Revision (Sequel to Whirlwind)

Chapter 6

CHAPTER 6

I woke up at around 7:00 am to the sound of banging on the bus door. I exited the bunk, running a hand through my hair before opening the tour bus door. There was Ben Bruce looking slightly worried outside.

"Um hi?" I said questioningly.

"Hey, listen I'm really sorry but our photographer is sick and he won't be back for about two weeks," he breathed. "And I wouldn't be asking you unless I really needed the help, but would you help us out on the photography end for the next week and a half?"

"I don't know Ben," I rubbed my arm.

"Please, we'll pay you and everything. Neck Deeps performing at the same stage as us so we won't have to worry about running back and forth between sets. And you don't even have to do it every day. You could do it like every other day," he rambled on, trying to convince me.

I sighed, sorry Lynn I can't let him down. I'm going to have to end my avoidance parade for about a week. I can't let all the guys in Asking suffer just because of him. "What time is your set today?"

"Thank you so much Allison! Our sets at 11:05 today. Try to get there for around 10:45 though."

I nodded slowly, hating that I would have to see him again. I can't even say that he's an asshole. He was one of the nicest guys I'd ever known. He didn't leave me, I told him to go and follow his dreams. I didn't want to hold him back. And I had known that the long distance option would have hurt us both just as much.

~~~~FLASHBACK~~~~

"Sumerian... it's relocating. They're relocating to Los Angeles, and they want me to go with them," Dennis said quietly.

I felt a weight on my chest and I could barely breathe. I wasn't going to say anything, I had to let him finish. 'Remember this is his dream,' I thought to myself.

"My mom, she thinks that I should go for it, because I might never get an opportunity like this again. But I wanted to talk you about it first. I'll stay if you want me to."

It was my choice, but I knew in my heart that I could never make him stay. That would be the worst thing I could do to him, I had to let him go. "I can't do that to you, I can't take your dream away from you," I felt empty and broken. I was losing my best friend.

"You deserve to be able to go out and show the world how amazing you are. And I know if you go out there, you're going to get signed to a band eventually, and you'll be able to live your dream. So many people would love to be in your position right now. Your mom is right, if you don't take this, you're never going to get another shot at it again, "I felt tears well up in my eyes, but I blinked them away. I wasn't going to do this now.

"But what about us?" he asked.

I sniffled, "I'll be okay without you, and we both know that you'll be okay without me. We'll still be friends... And if we ever meet up again one day, maybe we'll be able to try this again."

"Al..." his voice trailed off.

I felt myself slowly breaking, and all I wanted to do was fall to the floor and cry. No, that would only make this harder for him. I have to be strong.

"Listen Den, you know I love you. And that's why I'm letting you go. I'm not going to hold you back from doing what you love," I forced a smile.

"I love you too Allison," he said, his voice barley above a whisper.

I hugged him tightly, not wanting to let go. "I love you too Dennis, when do you leave?"

"Two days..."

"Then let's make the most of what we have left as friends," I sighed.

~~~~END OF FLASHBACK~~~~

I was the one who let him go. He wasn't to blame for any of it. Although I said that I had moved on, there might have been a part of me that still held on to what might have been.