Revision (Sequel to Whirlwind)

Chapter 8

A/N: I'm a day late, but I hope you enjoy this new chapter.

CHAPTER 8

~~~~~~Dennis's Point of View (Finally) ~~~~~

"Alright I guess I'll see you tomorrow," she said as she walked off towards The Amity Affliction's set.

I watched silently knowing that I blew it. It was the only time I'd gotten a chance to talk to her one on one since she had come back into my life.

I remember when she first saw us, on the second day of tour. She was surprised and excited, but then she was hurt because she thought I didn't remember her. I hated seeing her hurt like that, but I didn't want to get involved. She had a new life now, a life that sadly didn't include me. I had heard about her over the years as she became more popular as a photographer. I had tried to push that to the back of my mind though, but that was when I didn't have to face her.

She was happy now I could see it. I could see it in her green eyes, the way they lit up, more than they ever did when I was with her last. She was living her dream, just like I was living mine. All these years I had focused on moving forward like she would have wanted me too, I got so close to the band that once Danny left, I was the first one that they asked to replace him.

She had always been there though, I had always thought of her. She was behind every choice that I had ever made. I always did what she would have thought was right, because she wasn't just another girl to me. She was my best friend, she was the love of my life.

I could have come back for her. I could have gone and seen her, tried to start our relationship again, but instead I've been avoiding her for the past five years.

I had always had the option to go back to her, but I had always made the stupid choice of staying away.

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~~~~~Back to Allison's Point of View~~~~~

I waited for Lynn back at her bus. It was around 5:00 now, and I hadn't stopped thinking about him all day. I needed to talk to her, she would give me the advice I needed.

Oh God, it was so stupid of me to take this job and actually think I could do it without ruining everything that I had worked for. Why was I so stupid?

I heard the door click and looked up, watching Lynn walk into the bus. She gave me a concerned look before coming over and sitting next to me.

"Hey, what's going on?"

"I'm in a stressful situation and I need your help," I ran my hand through my hair.

"Shoot."

"So this morning I agreed to help out Asking by filling in for their sick photographer, and I think I made a mistake by doing that," she nodded at me to continue. "I keep thinking about the past, and about Dennis, and Ben. I don't want to screw everything up just because I can't control my feelings."

"I get what you're saying. But you're going to have to explain your feelings for the two of them to me," Lynn said.

"Well Ben, Ben is an amazing guy. He helped put me back together, when I thought that I was gone and beyond repair. He's funny, he's adorable, and he really does care about me. I love him for him, and he loves me for me. He makes me feel whole and like I don't have to go through anything alone. I would never want to hurt him, because he's done so much for me," I started.

"And Dennis, well he was someone who came into my life and made me realize what true love really was. He helped me to discover how amazing it is to love your best friend. He is the person who made me realize that when you really love someone, sometimes you have to let them go, even if that ends up hurting you. I let him go so that he could follow his dreams, and in the back of my mind, I've always held onto the hope that maybe one day he would come back to me and we could try again."

I looked at Lynn, trying to read her expression. I desperately wanted to know her take on this. I wanted her to tell me that it was just memories, and that I was happy with Ben, and that I should just forget that me and Dennis ever happened. She was contemplating it for a long time though and that worried me.

I was so confused. I wanted things to go back to normal. I mean why does he just get to come back into my life and mess things up for me? It's just not fair, I didn't want to have to deal with this.

I was finally happy, and he just had to come in and wreck it all for me. He had to screw with my emotions one last time.

"Well?" I asked her.

"I'm sorry Allison, but this is something that you might just have to deal with yourself. You're feelings seem to be really strong for both of them. I really would love to help you with this, but I can't tell you who you love more."