Tattooed Tears (A Jack Gilinsky Fanfiction) ❤︎

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*Danielle's POV*

It's been a week since I found out that Billy is out of jail and I hate to admit it, but I'm terrified.

You cannot understand why one would stay with an abuser until you only have a few people left in your life. I loved Billy, he was my everything. But I wasn't his everything. And now it's gone. But he's not.

And no matter how many times I tell myself that I will be safe, I don't believe myself. I may be in Nebraska and he may be in Illinois, but who's to say he can't find me?

One thing I know for sure is that Billy doesn't stop until he gets what he wants. 

I've tried to occupy myself to get my mind of all this. Jack is the only one that knows. But I think my friends are picking up on the fact that I'm sad about something. 

They are all taking me out to the mall, dinner, all that stuff. I'm very lucky to have such great friends.

Jack is so different. The good different. Because wouldn't you think that if you tell a guy something this extreme, that they would just run away. Jack actually cares, and that makes me so unbelievably happy. 

I need somebody in my life that can show me the new ropes to life. And I think God put Jack in my life for a reason. I really do. Jack was right about it all.

Although I am having a good time here with my friends, I really just miss my aunt. I want to go home. To my real home. In Chicago. But obviously, that's not going to happen.

Billy being let out means that he is on his own, since he is 19 and not a minor. I don't know how he is going to manage to find a place to live, but I honestly don't care. I hope he suffers the way I did.

"Hey guys, I think I'm going to get some fresh air for a bit. I'll be back soon," I stood up. I'm hanging with the girls in our dorm. We were playing Mario Bros, but now we're all just chilling out and relaxing on our beds. 

Just thinking about all this stuff makes me feel like I'm suffocating. I'm just going to take a little walk. No biggie.

"Alright. Be careful though. It's like 8 at night. Predators are out." Phoebe nodded and looked at me sternly like a mother.

"I'll be fine." I laughed.

"Seriously though, Danielle. Just come back right after, alright?" Sophia played the mom game too.

"Alright, mom!" 

"Hey, moms protect their own," Phoebe said giggling.

"Alright, bye birth givers." I laughed and left with a click of the door.

I walked slowly to the main lobby. Sometimes, when I'm upset, I'll just take my time and study the people I walk past. I know it sounds weird, but I just study everybody's features and I feel a little calmer for some reason.

I walked to the main lobby and then out the front doors. I felt some people watching me.

It was already pretty dark out, but that didn't stop me. I love the dark, it's calming. I love the sound of nature.

I put on the hoodie that I brought with and put it on. It was cold out, not going to lie. It's starting to become fall so of course, it's going to be cold outside.

I walked alongside the curb as a couple cars rode past. One car had some group of frat boys that slowed down when they saw me. I pretended like I was jogging and jogged my way right out of there.

I slowed my pace down once I got off the main road. I starting walking on a trail and thought for a little bit.

I thought about Jack. I thought about his smile. I missed his smile. I just saw him yesterday, but I miss him. Maybe I should have invited him to come with me. After all, he has been the most supportive person to me.