I knew you (Wesley Stromberg Fanfic)

Chapter 21

WES' POV

I don't remember much about the day that Lily woke up because after she said she had no Idea who I was everything went black. All I know is I woke up in a hospital bed later that night. Nobody would tell me what happened after I blacked out.

I also haven't seen Lily since that day. The only people I have seen is my mom, Keaton, and Drew. But after they wouldn't tell me what happened I decided to ignore them. I want to go see Lily but everyone told me to stay away for awhile, but how am I supposed to stay away from someone I love? How can she forget someone she says she loves?... Or loved.

I don't understand. How is this fair?

I get chills every time the thought of her not having any idea who I am comes into my head. I get angry. So angry I just lose it. I get up, trash my room, then I break down crying.

Whenever Keaton comes in my room to check on me I yell at him and tell him to get out because I can't look at his face without thinking of her.

She is my everything. And sometimes I think about ending it all because that's how much I love her, I can't live without her. But then that small bit of hope that she will remember me creeps into my mind.

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LILY'S POV

***FLASHBACK***

I can't believe Wesley would do that to Keaton because of me. That's it. I can't do this to them anymore. I'm tearing them apart.

I get in to my car and start driving.

I don't know how I'm going to do this though.

I pull over to the side of the road to write a letter to Wes. I have to tell him how I feel before I do this. I have to tell him I love him. Because I do. Wes is the one and only person I will ever love. Because he is the first person I have ever loved and the last person I will ever love.

I finished writing the letter and I put it in my pocket. Hopefully someone will find it.

I drive down the vacant road slowly. I see a light pole about 20 feet ahead. I take a deep breath in then let it out.

"I'm ready."

I start driving faster and faster I'm going about 150 then smash.

Everything went black and cold.

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After awhile I feel my self drifting back into consciousness. Everything on my body hurts. I open my eyes slowly. At first it's bright, like really bright. I close my eyes. Then I hear voices. What's going on? I open my eyes again only to see familiar faces. Why am I not dead? I can't be alive. No! Please just kill me already.

"Why am I still aliv- I um I mean what am I doing here?"

Then I realize everyone's here. Why is everyone here. How could these people care so much about me. I see three unfamiliar face. I have a gut feeling I know who they are, I just can't put my finger on it.

"Jackie, Mom, Dad. You're all here. Why?"

"Honey you were in a car accident. Do you remember what happened?"

I can't completely remember what happened. All I know is I was mad at myself, and I wanted to end my life so I crashed my car.

"I remember driving home from somewhere and I was angry. I can't remember why. Then I guess I just lost control of my car."

I had to lie. I couldn't tell the people I love that I was trying to kill myself. Its weird though because the one guy standing near the door seems to know im lying like he can see past my lies. He looks around 18, dark eyes, he is cute but my parents would never approve because he's older than me.

I remember writing a suicide note too. I don't remember what it said but I really hope no one found it.

The boy notices me looking at him and a huge grin appears on his face.

"Hey Lily Bear." he says.

He takes a step closer to me.

My breath hitches, my body goes stiff, and I suddenly feel frightened. I didn't know him. What was he doing?

"Um... I'm sorry but... Um... Who are you?"

He goes from having a blank expression on his face to an upset one. His eyes get red and watery and he clenches his fist.

"Come on Lily that's not funny you know who I am." He says a little harsh.

"I'm sorry, but I don't."

"I'm... I'm Wesley. Lil come on this isn't funny!" He yells.

I'm starting to get scared now.

"I'm sorry. I don't know you. Just please stop yelling."

He seems to be getting angrier and angrier every second that passes.

"Come on Wes. I think you need to cool down." The one boy says that looks a little bit older the, Wes, I think his name is.

"Don't tell me to fucking cool down! She's messing with me right? Because this isn't funny!" Wes yells at him.

As They leave the room Jackie and he other boy, who I think is the youngest of the three, follow them.

"I knew I didn't like that boy." My dad said

"Um who was that?"

My mom and dad look at each other worried.

"That's not important." My mom says "What is important is that you get some rest. We're going to go home and get you some clothes. The doctor says you can leave tomorrow."

"Okay."

They say bye then leave the room.

Jackie, Wesley guy, and the other two boys never came back. I was left alone in a dark room wondering.... Who is were those boys?

***END OF FLASHBACK***

August 1

•Dear Memory•

My doctor says I should start a diary because of the whole 'not remembering thing' he says that there's a chance that I might start forgetting other things so this will help if I do.

I've been trying to remember things about them but its not easy. Jackie has been telling me some things about them but my parents don't want us spending time alone together because they don't want her telling me about Wesley... Well at least that's what Jackie says. I wonder why they don't want me knowing about him? Anyway Jackie has been coming into my room late at night telling me about him little by little.

What I know so far is that Wesley is 19 and he's Keaton's brother, he's the younger one of the three. Wes, Keaton, and Drew, who is the oldest one, are in a band called Emblem3. I met Wesley when me and Jackie went to one of their concerts. Apparently he kissed me which kind of freaked me out because why would he kiss me when he just met me but what ever. That's all I know so far hopefully Jackie will tell me more tonight.

•end of diary•