Toxic Love ↭ Jason McCann

Chapter 12: "Nightmares"

Whenever I read this book the spacing is all weird and I don't know how to fix it so I apologize anyways I will now present you with chapter 12.
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Chapter 12: "Nightmares"

Carter's P.O.V

I opened my eyes slowly and looked around the room. Everything felt like
It was spinning and my head felt as if someone hit it with a hammer repeatedly. My hands were handcuffed together and my legs were tied with an old rope. The room seemed smaller than usual and the bed seemed more uncomfortable than what I was used too. What's going on? "Well well well. I see that you are finally awake." I turned my head to see that it was Jason a.k.a the devil standing there with a sly smirk plastered on his face.

I ignored him and turned my head the other way. I could hear his footsteps coming closer but it didn't phase me. I was no longer scared of him. I don't even care anymore. If he were to hold a gun to my head right now I honestly wouldn't care. I actually would be quite happy. Why can't he just end this all right now? He hates me and I practically hate myself now, so why not? I now know that no matter how hard I try I will NEVER be able to escape from Jason. I failed to many times.

I also know that in a few weeks I will be in an even more horrible place with a man that's probably three times my age. I know that he won't be kind and I know that he will be worse than Jason. But honestly I never thought that I did anything so wrong in my life to deserve this? I usually tried my best in school and I usually tried to help everyone. There's so many horrible people roaming this earth that don't even deserve this-

"Quit thinking and pay attention!" He yelled. I snapped my head in his direction. "What." I said with no emotion what-so-ever. "You thought you could just get away with hitting me and escaping? I had to kill four police officers and it's all your fault!" He growled. "No it was your choice to kill them! I'm sick of you! I absolutely hate you! You are a horrible human being and you don't deserve life! You should be where you belong and that is six feet underground!" I screamed at him. His facial expression completely changed and he looked.. sad?

Before I knew it he raised his hand upwards and slapped me as hard as he could. I screamed and looked up at him. "I told you I don't hit girls. But you aren't a girl you are a worthless little c*nt." He hissed at me before walking out of the room. He slammed the door so hard that one of the paintings fell off of the wall.

Tears rolled down my cheeks and I sniffled a bit. A man has never laid his hands on me in my entire life. But Jason isn't a man, he's the devil. My cheek throbbed and I could tell that it was already bruising. I hate him so fucking much and he had the nerve to call me a worthless little c*nt?!

Maybe his is right! Maybe I am fucking worthless because no one seems to care about me! My dad is probably sitting on the couch with his coffee in his hands watching the latest episode of CSI. But I know that my mom hasn't given up on me yet. The tears on my cheeks began to dry and my face stopped throbbing. The ticking from the clock seemed to calm my nerves and I sat my head down on the fluffy pillow. I closed my eyes and everything became dark.

I looked into the mirror and gazed at my red satin dress. I ran my hands over the wrinkles and flattened it all out. My hair never looked better and my make-up was exquisite. My six inch heels sparkled under the light and I have never felt this pretty before. I heard a knocking at the door. "One second." I called out so the he could hear me. I trotted over to the door as my heels clicked on the wooden floor. I opened the door to see those hazel eyes that I fell in love with. "Hey baby." He said and I pecked his lips. "Hi." I said. His eyes traveled all over my body and he smirked. "You look beautiful baby." He then grabbed my hand pulling me out of my room. We walked down the hallway leading to the twisting steps.

"I'm afraid to walk down the steps in these heels." I confessed and he laughed at me. He picked me up bridal style and walked down the steps. "I like your suit." I said and I started to giggle uncontrollably. "Thank you baby. You are so cute." He said as he smiled with his pearly white teeth. "Where are we going?" I asked as he set me down on the ground. "It's a surprise." He chuckled. "No! I hate surprises." I fake pouted like a two year old baby. "That sucks." He rolled his eyes at my immaturity. We walked out of the house. He unlocked his black shiny mustang and I giggled. Why am I so giddy? We got inside and he pulled out of the drive way and we drove down the street.

Before I knew it, he pulled into Giovanna's parking lot. Giovanna is the most expensive and nicest restaurant in all of Las Vegas. I clapped my hands and
began to bounce up and down. "You are so hyper." He said. "I know, I know." I giggled once more. He got out of the car and walked around to my side. He opened the car door for me and I got out. He pecked my lips and took my hand in his.

He opened up the door and pulled me inside. I never thought that I could love someone like him. I also never thought that someone like him could love me. He walked towards the counter and I hugged him from behind. "Table for two." He said. He had sunglasses on to cover his face. Sometimes I wish he wasn't the way he is. I wish we both had a normal life... But that's impossible for us. We are just different. The waitress began to lead us to our table.

We sat down at the table and everything was so romantic. Violins were being played in the background and rose petals covered the table. Two big bowls of pasta sat in front of us. "I hope you like all of this." He said nervously as he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly. "I absolutely love it!" I exclaimed. He chuckled and looked me in the eyes. "I love you so much Carter." He spoke softly. "I love you too Jason." I replied with a genuine smile drawn across my face.

I shot up from the bed breathing heavily. My palms were clammy and I felt sweaty. What the fuck kind of nightmare was that? That was horrible! I will never ever love him. Jason McCann is unlovable. He probably isn't capable of loving someone either. He's an asshole and he also hit me. Never in my life will I ever love Jason.


Jason's P.O.V

I felt so guilty for hitting her. Why would I do something so horrible? I promised myself that I would never ever hit a girl unless she was apart of another gang. But when Carter told me that I deserved to be six feet underground that made something inside me snap. I don't like being talked to like that. Her words actually hurt me and had some type of affect on me but I don't know why. I sat on my bed and ran my fingers through my hair. My hair was never perfect and it was always up into messy spikes. My hair was untamable considering I always ran my fingers through it. I sighed and sat back on my comfy pillow and I began to drift off into the darkness.

We walked through the flower meadow hand in hand. "Jason how did you find this place?" She asked. "When I was little my mom would take Jenna and I here. We would sit in the middle of the daisies and she would read us a story. It was magical." I told her. I really didn't like to speak about my mother because it pained me to know that she wasn't on this earth anymore. "Jason that is the sweetest thing ever." She cooed and I smiled. I turned to face her and I wrapped my arms around her waist. I leaned in and placed my lips against hers. She immediately began to kiss back. This kiss was so different than anything else. I wasn't 'licking her bottom lip for an entrance' or anything ridiculous like that. We just stood there and our lips were moving in sync perfectly. It felt as if we were the only two people in the world. We pulled away slowly and I looked into her eyes. "I love you Carter." I confessed before placing another soft kiss on her lips.

I sat up from the bed and looked around. What type of dream was that? I would be lying if I said I didn't like it.. I mean I usually never get guilty whenever I hurt someone and I don't think that I would ever spend five hours looking for someone but Carter seemed to change all of that. But I don't fucking like her and I never will. 'You like her Jason, you are just afraid to admit it.' The voice inside my head told me. I groaned and hit myself in the head trying to make the voice go away.

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Woahh those dreams were very weird! Lol so this chapter is somewhat long. But please vote and comment because when you do it makes me want to update more! :-)

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