Toxic Love ↭ Jason McCann

Chapter 33: Falling to pieces

Chapter 33: Falling to pieces

Jason's P.O.V

When I saw Johnson, I panicked. I shouldn't have jumped, but I did. I had my arms protectively wrapped around her as we fell. It didn't feel like we were falling fast. As a matter of fact, it felt as if we were falling at one mile per hour. My life basically flashed before my eyes, and Carter whimpered as we fell from the building. When I hit the ground, I was able to hold Carter securely to my chest. We rolled a few times before we stopped. I was in pain, but I could barely even feel it. My adrenaline was high, and I was only focusing on Carter.

She let out a cough, "We have got to get out of here!" I nodded quickly, and stood up. "A-Are you alright?" I stuttered. "I don't know." She whimpered. I immediately picked her up, and held her in the bridal style position. I know that it was cliché, but what else am I supposed to do? Let her walk in pain? No, I couldn't do that. I ran with her in my arms all the way to the car. I could hear Carter's faint sniffles, but I just ignored them.

I didn't look back because Johnson could be hot on my tail, I couldn't risk being caught by him. This is all my fault anyways. I shouldn't have taken Carter. I should've let her go. She would be happy without me. She wouldn't have to worry about Johnson, or all the other problems that I create. But, what am I supposed to do? I can't just let her go now. We've been through so much, and Johnson is still after us. He'll never stop until he gets us, and to be honest, that worries me.

After running with Carter in my arms for about three minutes, I finally reached the car. I pulled the keys out of my pocket, and unlocked the car as quickly as possible. I got inside of the car as I held Carter in my arms. She sat up on my lap as I put the keys in the ignition. I was about to press down on the pedal, but Carter's sweet voice stopped me, "What about the gang?"

"They have to find their own way back! I-I can't risk losing you." I said shakily. I pressed on the pedal, and immediately sped away from the warehouse. "That's so selfish Jason! They're probably hurt!" She yelled. "I don't fucking care! I don't care about them! I care about you, and getting us the hell out of here!" I bellowed. Carter's eyes widened, and she looked furious. "This is all your fault Jason! This is too much for me. I love you, but sometimes I wonder what life would be like if you hadn't of kidnapped me... life would be so much easier." She muttered.

I felt a pang of hurt in my chest, and I tried my best to ignore it. "So you're saying that life would be easier without me?" I said as my voice cracked. She shook her head at me, and continued to look out the window. "Just forget it." She mumbled. "Forget it? Really Carter, forget it? I have waited all my life for someone to care about me, and I found you. You're literally the only one who ever cared about me, and I thought you were different. Now you're saying that life would be easier without me. You're just like everyone else!" I spat.

"Maybe I am like everyone else." She said. "So... what now?" I muttered. "I just don't know." She replied. "I'm guessing you want to break up?" I asked. I'm trying to act strong, but this is literally killing me inside. I never thought I would experience this type of pain again. I promised myself that I wouldn't let anyone hurt me again. But, I guess I lied to myself. Promises are meant to be broken, right? "No Jason, I don't want to fucking break up with you." She said. I sighed in relief, and continued to drive down the road. I kept one hand on the steering wheel, and the other was resting at my side.

I felt Carter's hand brush against mine. She interlocked our fingers, and she gave my hand a light squeeze. "Jason, I'm so sorry. I just got really angry. I didn't mean it. I have just been really stressed." She whispered. I looked over at her, and smiled. "It's alright, I love you so much." I whispered back. "Promise me that everything will be alright." She giggled. "I promise babe."

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We drove around for about five hours. I had no idea where I was heading, but I don't plan on meeting with the gang anymore. They're too much to handle, and I think it'd be better if I protected Carter on my own. I don't need anybody, but her. She's all I need, and she's all I want.

My phone started to ring. Shit, I forgot all about my damn phone. I picked it up and placed it against my ear. "Hello?" I said. "How fucking could you?! We've done everything for you, and you just left us. Chaz was shot in the stomach, and it's all your fault. You're so lucky that we found a way out of there or we would be dead right now! Chaz is in fucking critical condition. Fuck you McCann!" Ryan screamed. I let out dry chuckle. "And you expect me to care?" I asked as I laughed even harder.

"You're sick!" Ryan bellowed. "No, I actually feel quite nice. I haven't been sick in a long time." I teased. "I don't understand why you're acting like this. Chaz is your best friend. What the fuck is wrong with you?" He spat. "A lot of things." I muttered. "Jenna would be so disappointed in you..." Ryan said before the line went dead. I froze in my seat. Jenna? She wouldn't be disappointed in me, would she? No, Jenna is used to me being like this. I let out a sigh, and Carter looked over at me. "What's the matter?" She asked. I sucked on my teeth, and clenched my jaw. I shouldn't let Ryan's words get to me.

"It's nothing." I stated before tearing my hand away from hers. "Jase, stop." She demanded. "Stop what?" I mumbled. "I know you more than you think I do. You're about to get upset, and go on a rampage, like always. So just sit back, and relax. Don't let him get to you." She smiled as she ran her fingers through my hair. Ugh, she always knows how to calm me down. I don't know how she does it, but she does.

"I love you, Carter." I whispered.

"I love you too, Jase."

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